Nothing's Ever Built To Last

This Dragon Year

2012-01-23T19:44:00.002+08:00

Yes indeed I'm off this space for quite some time..
So I took a little time off this festive season lying on my bed and typing this post. Haha so relax!!

For the past few weeks, I've been dead busy with school, tests etc. Hate such busy schedules or perhaps school stress.. But maybe aft I've graduate I'll start missing being a student:/

So right back on to the topic of this YEAR'S CNY:

As usual I've been feasting on cakes, pastries and tarts.. WHO DOESNT?! Feel extremely guilty and sinful each time I take a bite of a pineapple tart. The taste is just so sensational but you can't help but just sitting there and counting those calories slowly assimilating into your tiny but stretchable stomach. #sigh what to do?

Ok, so this year's rather special for me.. The fact that I donned on the colour red for both top(dress) and bottom(shoes). This has never happened before. You can say it's
one in a blue moon that I made such
abrupt decision. HAHAH.

PS/ I need to set aside some time for my last revision before my long school break. Afraid that I would go into a holiday mood even once sch starts......

Till then; I'll catch you soon!!

This Christmas

2011-12-24T23:36:00.001+08:00

So I'm currently lying on my bed typing this post on my iPhone. Too lazy to get up to just on my com. These 2 weeks of holiday is just too short for me. Aft tmr, it'll be a week gone and I'm only left with 1 more. There's just too much to revise. IM JUST A TAD WORRIED FOR FA AND BS. Sighh. Really hope I can just miraculously comprehend them ASAP before sch reopens..

Moving on to this year's festive season: I don't feel any excitement knowing that today's the eve of Xmas. To me, it's just another usual weekend. Just that I've noticed more people carrying bigger shopping bags and cakes around.

A couple of days back(including today), I've been to town a couple of times and I see the word SALE everywhere. It's just too tempting and enticing. There are times that I would just want to buy the entire shop!! That extreme/

So... I've been hunting around for my CNY clothings and so far....... I've only gotten my shoes. :/ Sighh.

Oh well I shall continue shopping again aft Xmas as there will always be POST XMAS SALE!!! ;)

On a lighter note, I'm heading to Malacca in a couple of days.. Gonna try my luck there for some accessories and clothings.. Heheh.

Ok so that's enough for today!!

I'll catch you soon folks!! ;)

MERRY XMAS ONCE AGAIN EVERYONE!!!!!!!!

Neglection

2011-12-17T22:31:00.008+08:00

These few beautiful moments of my life.

I know I've left this space for isolation for a pretty long period of time. I've always wanted to update as often as I can but time just wouldn't allow me to do so. I've been god damn busy with school, tests after tests and dance. No time for social life.. Only recently, I smelled a tiny-winy bit of "freedom". But I know it will only be temporary for just a mere 2 weeks. After the pathetic 2 weeks, it will be just another hectic cycle all over again.. I really wish for everything to just slow down in speed and not zoom pass me without me knowing/

I'll catch you soon~

The musical

2011-11-05T16:29:00.001+08:00

So I've noticed that I was away from this space for quite some time. Reason being that either I just have too little time or I've forgotten the content of the day itself..

CURRENTLY TAKING THE WAITING TIME TO BLOG.. Heheh. I felt that this sem I spent almost 80% of my time in dance.. I ALMOST NEGLECTED MY STUDIES and this is bad:/

To add on, I'VE BEEN SLEEPING AT UNEARTHLY HOURS FOR THE PAST FEW WEEKS. I feel so lethargic.

OH DID I MENTIONED THAT I JUST CREATED TWITTER?!?! HAHAHA. Yes yes I'm a mountain tortoise who doesn't have social network plus life. Hahaha. So follow me on twitter @vanthn.
THANKS BABEHHHH^.^
Catch you soon!!

Dead Busy

2011-10-16T20:13:00.001+08:00

The title of the post just says everything. Typing or creating this post while waiting for the bus on the blogger app that it has for iPhone. 

Well, I'm going back to school almost everyday-weekends were spent dancing and not shopping anymore.. I hope everything goes back to normal after Muse IV.

IF YOU ARE FREE: COME FOR THIS PERFORMANCE. IT'S ON THE 10 NOV, THURS, 8PM @ The Republic Culture Centre. Give me a nudge if you want any tixs. It's at 10$!!!!

Breathing Space

2011-09-29T10:28:00.004+08:00

Back again on blogger.

Had been really busy for the past 5 days with F1 event and dance camp back to back. For the past 3 days of F1 I practically ended work in the wee hours of the morning (3 to 4 am) The time I slept was the time where most people would have gotten up alr.

I was at the PODIUM LOUNGE(poolside party) @ The Ritz Carlton serving and clearing alcohol after alcohol and cigarettes after cigarettes. Sucha tiring job. Throughout the 3 days I was so afraid that I would take the wrong orders from the guests as they were those VVIP. Mind you, they are not just 'V'. My team were in-charge of sponsors like "Vertu" (if you are not aware, it is a really expensive handphone that costs at least 50k) They have a branch at Ion Orchard if I am not wrong..

Saw really pretty sports cars that were on showcase/display. The plus fact was that they were not launched or out in the market yet. Moving on to the Auction session where I see people splurging on few grands just for a racer's helmet or body suit with their signature on it. I was thinking: " Hmm, what are you gonna do with this helmet? Was it worth it?"

There was also a fashion show. Woah, the international models were at least 1.85m and above. I felt like a midget standing next to them. Oh and also, they make people look fat. They were so scrawny and lean with a couple of abs. Just a last sentence from me: They put Singaporeans to shame. (with their height)

Oh and only on the last night I actually physically popped a champagne bottle for the guests. It was my first and raw attempt. HAHAH. It was really nerve-racking but thanks to the patience of the guests.

And right after F1 was my dance camp. I was physically and mentally drained throughout the 3 days. Though the camp was short but it was really fun. Gossip sessions was always loved and treasured. HAHAH. It was eat sleep dance. (with some games alongside) :)

I have another more practice later in the afternoon.

Stay tuned for more updates!!~

Quality Time

2011-09-22T11:12:00.010+08:00

Out the day before ytd with gillian to several places: Chinatown, Haji etc..

Had a yummy and filling feast at "Yum Cha". We practically landed ourselves servings of food after food. (Not only dim sum) Saw "tu tu kueh" alongside and bought it. (Imma really big eater.. Hehehhe)

Took a slow stroll along streets of chinatown. Was mistook for tourists by some shops when we asked for the prices of some items and their start price were really high... They gave us a deep look; analysing our nationality.

PS: I think I will be knocked out the whole of next week with F1 starting just tmr (saying hello to becoming a nocturnal animal as I end at around 2am for the next 3 days) and dance camp follows immediately after that..

Now thinking whether I really made a mistake in joining the F1 event... hmmmmm..
Look out for the next update pretty soon!!~

A Dare

2011-09-18T17:00:00.004+08:00

Oh did I mention that I was offered a free hair cut by 'Toni&Guy' about a week ago? Shirl Joyce and Me were stopped by a man scouting for people or should I say "heads with long hair?" for the salon. So the truth was..... they needed "guinea pigs" to let their trainee stylists to have hands-on practice with the guidance of the professional stylist. A question was posed to us: "Are you comfortable with a major change in your hair length?" I was almost hesitant to go for it when I heard that and my first and candid reply was "HUH?!?!?". Then after, the stylist told us that they were experimenting with creative cutting. This got me quite curious and so I went for it.

We sat down and the professional stylist came to us individually to ask us what hair styles we have in mind and gave advise on which hair style was best for us. He began whipping out markers; started drawing the outline of our heads, hair length and which direction to cut accordingly on the mirror. I found it really unique at how they teach the trainees how to go about cutting different styles "step-by-step". Pretty cool.

I was given a "star" parting on my head coupled with massive layering. (I can pass of as having concave/short hair if I were to hide the bottom half of my hair underneath. Heheheh)

So.. after a long and sleepy 3 hours spent at the salon with all the washing, blowing and cutting, I kinda had more volume added to my hair. HAHAHA. Well, I felt that it looked the same as my current but it feels less thicker and different when I tie/bun it up.

Sawatdee Kaa~

2011-09-15T10:48:00.017+08:00

After 3 days in Bangkok, I am back in Singapore now. Bangkok treated me really well with good/cheap buys, unique street food, countless shopping malls/street markets etc. The moment I stepped into Suvarnabhumi airport(Thailand) I started missing Bangkok. Sigh... I can stay there for as long as I can if language was not a barrier.

Well, one thing that I felt uncomfortable was being stared at. When people stare at me I would tend to think that there is something wrong with what I am wearing or there is something on my face etc. Well after the 1st day, I slowly took it as their "habit". HAHAH. The weather could be compared to Singapore's weather and I when I had my shades on, I invited more stares.... But at least when I look back at them, they can't see my eye movement. Hahah. So that was so much better. I don't feel awkward anymore. :)

I didnt really take alot of pictures as the streets were really cramped and uneven plus the fact that they were famous for pick-pocketing. So I rarely took out my camera when I felt that it was unsafe.I have been also feeding myself quite alot.. From the start of the day: Buffet breakfast from the Hotel and End of the day: snacks like tom yam cup noodles(yummie) etc. The food courts in the shopping centres have a different/unique way of collecting "money" from the food we ordered. Firstly, we have to check the price of what we want to eat and then head to the coupon booth to purchase the required amount of coupons that you would need to use. I find that quite a hassle though.. (walking up and down)

I love shopping at those street markets and stalls that are non air-conditioned as I CAN BARGAIN!! It would be good if you can go together with groups of 3-5 people as you can definitely get low and cheap buys because it is mostly wholesale. So the more you buy the cheaper it is!! Also, they have a habit of asking you to press the calculator to state how much you are willing to offer for that item. When this comes, I am really very scared because they seem really eager and desperate for business. When you start bargaining with them, you better be prepared to buy it as by walking away, they will get very mad at you. One more thing: They do not have proper/fix designated position where they set up their stalls, they normally move around.

The clothes can be as cheap as 4 dollars per piece. The clothes I see there is exactly what I see in shops like bugis street and fareast plaza. Thinking of it now, I felt cheated buying those clothes for bugis and fareast. The range in prices are far to much. Bought what I needed and felt really "full" from shopping.

Time to tune back to Spore's life. Need to forbid myself from shopping.

I'll catch you soon!!~~~~

Through The Pinhole

2011-09-02T15:04:00.006+08:00

Met up with the "oldies" yesterday at school. (Not all of them though..)

Time to start on something productive.

Lying on my bed, I hear the clock ticking for me.

Everyday passes so fast without me knowing. I always thought that staying at home, time passes slower compared to when you are out with friends etc. Well, now no I no longer hold this stand. As I'm typing this, it is already in the mid afternoon. The morning was spent watching "Dear John" myself. Miraculously, it kept me occupied till about noon.

Why the rush in finding for jobs this holiday?!? It is only a month.. Don't they want to spend time with their friends? Are they that hard up for money? This vacation, one should go for a short getaway instead. I am pretty sure the next semester is not any kinder to us. Recharge and get every ready for sem 2!!

Forever & Always

2011-08-31T13:20:00.006+08:00

Another staying @ home day today..

Sunday: went for a "shopping spree" at F21. This is the season that I always love- Tribal printz!! Saw too many pretty pieces. I somehow couldn't figured out some of their pricing of their clothings. A pair of denim shorts can cost 35$ while a full length denim can just cost only 17$. You see the major difference here? It goes the same for some tops and dresses...

Monday: Out for a "meaty" buffet at Seoul Garden. (Ate most of their meat) Yummmeee~ It was a pity that the food were out of stock at a speed of lightning. It was a good thing that we went early though:) Couldn't squeeze in dinner when I went home.

Tuesday: Out to Holland V for food. The place has a few nooks and corners. Narrow driving lanes coupled with yuppies. Saw quite a number of uncouth people there too. It's pretty much of an equal mixture.

Thursday: Going back to KC for teachers' day celebration. I miss the school!! :\(Even though I live less than 1 km from it) Cannot wait to step into the school with fond memories.
Heading to dance @ school in the late afternoon/evening in preparation for Muse.

Sunday: Training at The Riz Carlton in preparation for F1. Thinking of it makes me feel drained..

Andddd.......
I won't be in Spore the following weekend. I'll be flying of to Bangkok from 11 to 13 sept!!!!!!!!!! Hehehe. So excited~~~ I somehow cannot control my ecstatic self. :)

Champagne Showers

2011-08-26T19:48:00.004+08:00

I AM F I N A L L Y DONE WITH MY EXAMS FOR SEM 1 YEAR 1!!!!!!
TO LET YOU KNOW.....

MY HOLIDAYS BEGIN FROM THIS VERY DAY!!! Heheheh. Got many to-do list on my list. Wondering how am I gonna fulfill them..... Hmm..

Back on my feet for dance!!! After a long break from it, I kinda feel rusty from it:\

I am wondering how my dear friends are doing now? Some having exams at the moment while some are having their vacation break just like me. Really do want to meet them so badly!!!!!!!
Sighhh..

Ok, I can post more often now as I have 5 weeks or so of vacation~ ^.^

You Had My Heart Inside

2011-08-12T19:06:00.008+08:00

So this was on Monday-our first formal presentation as a class after 15 weeks of normal presentation. :) Everyone looked so clean, fresh and ready for the working world. (judging by the way they don on their shirts, ties and blazers) Hehehhe.

Monday is going to be the last lesson with my class. After which we will all be changing classes. How I hope that there will be nice and friendly people. :) I dread for this day to come.... I'll be having a 1 week study break next week in preparation for my last test to sum this semester up. To say that I am not afraid would be a lie. Hence, I really hope whatever I am soon going to revise will somehow be of good use. Really very scared~~~

Oh, NATIONAL DAY WAS A FEW DAYS AGO. SO HOW WAS THE CELEBRATION? While all JCs, primary and secondary schools were having a nice 2 days holiday. I was only having one. :\ This..... is not equal.

OK, MOVING ON.... I'll be going down to Riz Carlton tmr for job allocation for F1 event. Gonna be in slippers even though they stated that we have to dressed in "smart-casual". What to do? (waiting for the toenail to heal....) I'm keeping away from dance from the time being due to this. I hope to bounce right back then after!

AND..... ON SUNDAY WOULD BE AN EXCITING DAY!!

COME DOWN TO THE FLEA @ *SCAPE ON THIS COMING SUNDAY(14/8) FROM 2-8pm!! My friends and I will be setting up a booth selling pre-loved apparels at REASONABLY LOW PRICES!!!!

BE THERE OR BE SQUARE!!!!!!!!!!

Another Phase

2011-07-29T18:01:00.002+08:00

I've been dead tired from school and dance. Both are occupying a large proportion of my time and I can only (sometimes) find rest towards the end of the week, like today. But still, I have many things to do on hand. Thinking of it makes me feel up-tight. :\

Another 2 more weeks time and I'll have my formal week/presentation. I am really not looking forward to that. The boys in my class are so excited because they can wear suits. (I dont see how exciting is that....) Suits=hot, stiff, too proper. To add on, you have to be mindful of your actions and behaviours when you donned on a suit. How troublesome!!

I just realised that I've been grumbling and lamenting alot. It took up 2 paragraphs of this post. HAHAH. Oh well, I'm sorry. Hehehe.

Stay tune for the next update!!! ^.^

The Railway

2011-07-22T19:21:00.005+08:00

So this was my last weekend spent at the track. Sad to say, it is going to be demolished... :(

Had a really tiring and long walk(from Bukit Panjang Plaza----- Rail Mall) The track was rocky making it difficult to walk fast. My legs felt sore then after/

Had DANCE ytd and I woke up with an aching body. I feel like I'm already 80 years old when I'm not even nearing there. Time to train my stamina!~

This weekend, I will be off for a couple of fleas with the girls. Pretty EXCITED!!!!!!^.^

Another 3 more weeks and there will be a change of classes alreadyyyyyyyyyyyy. I'm dreading this. :\

Back On Board!!

2011-07-08T19:53:00.008+08:00

I've just realised that I was off this space for quite some time. Ok, so this would be my first post after completing my first round of tests. And also to let you know, I'm in the midst of the second one thoughhhh.. Urghh. :\

So meet my loud, disturbing, friendly pals above. HAHAHAH. Btw, the photos were taken today during my Organisational Behaviour lesson. Yes, needless to say... We were kinda free, besides the fact that today we covered ways of negotiating. I felt that it was really not neccessary to have 2 opposing parties physically negotiating. It somehow led to tension in the class? There were times when unhappiness broke out and it was really messy.... As for me, I strayed away from that chaos.

Now that I am moving closer to the end of Year 1 Sem 1, I feel a sense of nostalgia in me. To think that all of us have to change classes without barely being together for at least half a year. And yes if you are wondering, the school has this concept of changing class after every 4 months which is every one semester. They feel that it is important to work with as many people as possible and get as "many" friends.. Moving on to Sem 2 is a whole lot of different life. Formal attire sets in coupled with more business modules. I'm actually quite scared for it? No more sandals and shorts for me:'(

HARD TO ADAPT. BUT YA... NO CHOICE~~~Sighhhhh//

Mash Ups

2011-06-18T20:59:00.004+08:00

Been eyeing on these YSL art oval rings. Particularly the navy blue one^.^ So elegant and classic!!!!~

To sum my week up, I'm finally done for the first round of UT. The next Understanding Test will be the start of July. So as you can see, there's no time to lag behind. The 5 days in a week for me is like a roller coaster- there's no time to stop and day dream but think continuously. I have to even use my brains for dance. The weekends are not even a short getaway for me if you see the situation I am in now. I dont smell anymore long breaks for the time being. I feel so sad without them... :\

Currently hooked onto Sam Tsui's covers and mash up for the latest songs. Really refreshing and pleasing to the ears. His vocals are on the higher range though.

Heading to the newly opened Editor's Market tmr @ OC. :) Excited for the fashion there. Hehehe/

Assemble Moments

2011-06-11T19:55:00.009+08:00

Had GE briefing at SMU today with Valerie. We will be ushers for the Great Eastern's Women Run on 3 July at MBS sector. Guess the time we have to be there....... it's 430am-1130am :O Say goodbye to proper sleeping routine on that day.. But pretty excited for it at the same time. :) Hehhehe.

My nails for the past 1.5 weeks or so........

PS: While others are just starting their short term break. Mine has just ended pretty quickly:\

Routine is back on board on Monday. A late day for me.

Throw Down Your Guts

2011-06-08T13:40:00.009+08:00

This was my Saturday with the girlz. Went for both fleas at Iluma and *Scape. Had more of nail affair? O.P.I spreez.... HAHAH.

Spent ytd with Gillian and Davinna in Town walking, eating, laughing, talking etc.. Hope for more. :)

DAYZ IN SCHZ-Before a week's break~

(The blue wall is really pretty for some serious photoshoot) ^.^

OKAY, AND BACK TO THE CURRENT NEWS. School's starting in about a few more days... And and and and and and.... I will have another 2 more tests.... And a couple more weeks, another set of tests. Now it will be test 2:'( &*%^$%&

I think ever since poly began, I became fatter? I just felt that somehow I ate more than usual. Like having massive buffet uh.

AND YAY YAY YAY, I will be part of F1 this year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!~ WHOO~ Heheheh. :)

Mood Affair

2011-06-01T20:29:00.002+08:00

Today marked the last day of school. Tmr would be the start of my holidays-just a short one. A break for me to study for my tests. I have Organisational Behaviour and Communication Practice tests when school reopens a week and a half later. So anxious for it:\

Since it was the last day, my class had a different genre to "celebrating" it. Well, it wasnt intentional though..... HAHAH. Guess what? We had a Manicure session!!! Fun huh?!? Most of the girls had SHATTER for their nails. It was like a uniform nails when all had a base colour and painted OPI black shatter over (Even I had it done) To top it off, the guys were being dragged into this affair. They had theirs painted... in a gay way. HAHHAH. We were painting nails profusely even the classes closest to us could smell the manicure smell. WHAT AN EMBARRASSMENT!!!! It feels as though we were coming to school just for this purpose.

The PEAK of the day was that we were exempted from presentations. For this, we must thank the facilitator. :) A totally nice way to start the holidays.

Cant wait for duo-fleas on saturday with my pals!!!!!!! Heheheh. Happiness~unfolds~in~me~!!!!!

Reunion

2011-05-29T20:44:00.010+08:00

Family day and Momentum 2011 on saturday. I must conclude that my weekend was burnt out. Rush in and out like nobody's business. So tiring for my legs. Had gossip sessions. All time fav-love every moment of that!! The time on saturday was just too fast; faster than a normal day. Everyone got their new start, life, story, style etc. The feeling of nostalgia just sets in when I stepped into KC. I miss the canteen food even thought there were quite few stalls, miss my class seating arrangement, the clique, the laughters...... And thinking about it now, tmr is Olevel MT. Just about a year ago, it was me seating for it and stressing over it. I would not be so free typing some grandmother story.

WISHING ALL THOSE SEATING FOR THE EXAM THE BEST OF LUCK!!!!^.^

Momentum in the evening. A pretty neat performance though the programme was kinda rush? It ended quite fast. I didnt realised that I was seating for 90mins. HAHAHAHA. My holidays are coming. A few more days to it:) Buttttt.... it is ending quite fast. Sighhh. Then tests and all followssss..

GSS salezzzzzzz. Need go hunting for cheapz buyz... (my hobby) Heheheh.

Till then, I'll catch you soon!!

HAPPY 300th!!!~

2011-05-22T18:02:00.006+08:00

All the fun in class. Taking a little time out to blog from my packed schedule.

Looking at how little I update my blog, I'm actually quite surprised to see that it reached 300 posts. Amazing~ I have tests starting from tmr and for the rest of the week. I wish I could predict the questions though..

Well, looking forward to KC Family's Day and Momentum 2011!! TOO excited for both!! ^.^

My whole body is under excruciating pain from Dance(twice a week). Too much aches for me to bare.

I want to see my girls~

Ghost Of Me

2011-05-15T18:55:00.002+08:00

Halfway into the month. Seen many characters, personalities, attitudes etc. I need to learn how to accept them. This would be a new challenge up on my list.

I have an upcoming test in about a week's time. Im feeling quite clueless.. Not too sure what's coming out. So far, been in school for about 5 weeks-done about 25 RJs. (Kind of an essay thing that force you to write) Laughed quite abit for the first month of my life in poly. Owell/

Excited for tmr's Modern Dance Tea Party!!!!!!!!!~ Fun Fun Fun^.^
Indulging myself in events. I'm in the Great Easten Women's Run Event. (Obviously not the one running-Not so ON) There's another one that makes you go ga-ga....... F1 event!!!!!! HAHAH signed up for that. MY DREAM TO BE PART OF THAT. WHOOO...

Looking at those secondary kids studying, I cannot help but think back my days in secondary 3 and 4: Those stress look that never leave our faces no matter what. Worrying what if we dont understand a certain topic, what will happen?! Running everywhere for soultions to play safe just in case it pops up for majors. To think of it, we might have gotten high blood pressure from that 2 years. But well, thank god.

I'll catch you soon!!v.v

Ray Of Beam

2011-05-09T19:46:00.003+08:00

Packed scheduled weekend. Love being busy with errands to do. (At least I do not get bored)

YAY finally got my Holga. The colour combination is so hot and attractive. HAHA. Makes you want to look at it even longer. :) HEHEH.

Caught WATER FOR ELEPHANTS. Seriously, the show is.................... QUITE SAD yet NICE. I kinda like the story line besides the fact that the animals were tortured. I fell in love with the elephant, Rosie. I didnt know that they are such loyal animals. They can tell wrong from right and evil from good. (I think it it only applies to the trained ones) But they are just so sweet. The best part: I was wearing an elephant's head around my neck and watching the show. So coincidental!! Go catch the show if you can. It is worth it!!!!!!~

As usual, I will catch you soon!! ^.~

Your Guardian Angel

2011-04-30T17:42:00.009+08:00

This would be a post that sums up my entire week. Caught up with the girls last sunday. Plan to Marina Barrage failed so we were stranded in Marina Bay Sands instead. Spamed 2 new Canon DS. Whoo, It was certainly a fun-filled day with them. This was an outing in what 9358585 years? Well, now that we are all beginning to mould into our new school timetable and schedules, meeting one another would obviously be kinda rare? :\

Waking up early before the sun breaks- at 6 everyday. These accumulates, and now I'm so tired. Cant wait to start on my IGs. ^.^ Mainly, JIVE events and Modern Dance!! :) At least, I get some exercise and say hello to tone body again. HAHAH.

Now, I'm hooked onto Holga cameras and leopard print Toms. :'( Sigh, how, I want them. Who would want to get them for me?!?! I would be super damn damn grateful to you. But right, it always ends up me getting it for myself. So that sentence was kinda redundant//

Looking forward to class outing with (W47K) to MARINA BARRAGE tmr!!!!!! for some picnic and photo shoots!! (now I can finally go there) Can you imagine I never went there before? Sucha failure man~ Dont laugh at me. I will feel sad ok.

I MISS YOU DEE AND ATIKA!!!!!!!! Can you appear now? I feel like pinching both of you everyday!!

I will catch you soon everybodyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^.~

Camouflage

2011-04-20T17:59:00.009+08:00

Beginning to adapt to POLY life. Presentations everyday. No joke.. But frankly speaking I like this learning approach. :) Problem Based Learning!! Reflection Journals & Quizes to do every day. Changing of group and team mates everyday.. Didnt really like that:\ But well, more friends ya. :) One more thing, I have to lug my laptop in and out everyday. Get firm arms.. HAHAHHA.

Looking forward to meeting my babes this weekend!!!! Miz them!!!~

Ok Time to head back to workkk/

Over-numbered

2011-04-10T19:47:00.003+08:00

Freshmen Camp on the 8th. Had fun even though they played the most retarded games. Seriously, I'm not very pro in ice breakers. Always lose kind; end up the last. Then those Year 2/3s end up laughing at me:\ AH HA. Sounds like I'm sucha idiot at these.. HAHAH. So proud that Integrated events actually has quite a number of hottiez. Hey, they are real eye candies when you are just too stress with school work. By taking occasional glances at them can actually provide mercy relief to you:) HAHAHAHA I'm like boosting their egos when I typed those sentences out. Oh well, they are just my thoughts when I'm abit out of sorts? So you dont really see me oogling at boys when I'm my real self (not my habit).. Hehehe.

Looking forward to the final orientation whereby all the different schools are in it!!!!! And now, I myself dont really know when will I meet my babes after school starts... School terms and holidays are quite different:\

New environment- not too sure how will I adapt to it. Really Unpredictable. No friends=no care and concern. Cause my personality doesnt let me to be an extrovert? Then I will come across as proud? Ironically, in hospitality the people are just the total opposite of me. The student leaders event made a statment saying "You cannot find anyone in hospitality soft, they are usually LOUD and fun people" And oh boy, this intimidates me/

Up Front

2011-04-07T14:47:00.006+08:00

Just got my new lappy for studies!!! Heheheh so happy~

I've just set my eyes on mini lava glitter lamps. They are just so magical and surreal^.^

I cant wait for Freshmen though.. AH HA. See the eagerness in me/

So how's your week so far? Rate it GOOD? Mine was a whirlpool-ran from one place to another to run errands. It'll be rare times like this that I get to sit down and have a nice rest. Once everything starts, it wouldnt stop.

And after today, it'll be bby JOYCE's 17th BDAY!!!!! The cute and innocent girl who finally smelled 17. :) Wish her all the best~ Sadly, I wont be there to celebrate with her on her exact date.

Till then/

Freedom Has Its Scent

2011-04-05T13:49:00.011+08:00

I want a trip inside your head.

To know that everything's okay.

Do you feel anything at all?

I stay wide open at the future.

Hoping it will stare right back at me

To see what it will bring me.

Shadows casted away

I lost the soul that you left.

Flames that burn; Ashes that stay.

The smell lingers on No, it will not fade

Feelings waver & was never constant

Taste & See the universe

Yearning for the change that leaves you empty.

But inevitably you would be back again...

When they say that "Time heals everything", what stand do you hold?

I'm just stuck in the middle for such phrases.

Had a nice refreshing run today.

Venture Out

2011-04-02T14:50:00.003+08:00

Buffet at Seoul Gardens to start off April with my babes. Ate till my fill and drank down 2 bowls of cold almond jelly. All time fave!! Barbecued chicken, beef, marinated fillet & squid and the list goes on. We ordered just too many items. Well, if you noticed there wasnt any carbo in it. So meaning, after a few rounds of walking the food would have digested. I dont know about the rest but it happened to me.

Since there was no camera on that day.. Our ingenious minds came up with neoprints. Typing the word out feels strange on my fingers and my eyes. It was about 5 years since I laid my fingers on that small print.. Went straight into the booth-been there, done it, touched it. One moment, it felt as though there was a language barrier. No Japanese background so all we could do was selecting the options by luck and feelings.

Stopped at a cafeteria for some deal game. Bingo, it was MONOPOLY DEAL.

And when everyone has their own planned itinerary, it comes to a point where meetings/outings would be eliminated & we have to choose selectively which one is really worth going for. Sad to say, we certainly will meet/have met that moment in a point of our lives. Lastly, my point would be: Why are are there so much hustling and bustling in our lives? I yearn for some simplicity..

DREAMS > REALITY

2011-03-31T14:16:00.013+08:00

Some U.S.S goodness from ytd. The sun was blazing & piercing HOT. Pretty good weather I must say. The attraction I found most unique was the MUMMY. Unexpected ride and pretty souvenirs. Food was indeed cut throat. Take for example: Chicken rice where you can get it for about 3 bucks was sold for 10.50$. Totally 3 times the market price. I was stummed at the price, so I paid that price; but a bit lesser for some pasta.

Ok I shall not continue anymore negative comments on Spore tourists' attraction.

It's worth it to get wet and wild there with your friends la. A really different environment and atmosphere. For one moment I felt I was not in Spore but Overseas. HAHAH.

So, that'll be it!! Tune in for more updates~

Just The Way It Goes

2011-03-23T11:01:00.008+08:00

It could have been something
Something into nothing
That's just the way it goes
And everybody knows

Starting flying this way
Arrows through a heart shape
That's just the way it goes
And everybody knows
That's just the way it goes

Driving down the highway
Living on a heart ache
That's just the way it goes
And everybody knows

Dreaming of your best thoughts
Dying for the small talk
That's just the way it goes.
And everybody knows (x2)
That's just the way it goes*

First time, just a quick run through
Next time, when you're gonna get to
Slow down
Do ya hurry up
And move on to another round

Next time, better than the first time
Last time, better than the next time
Sunsets, fade to black
And you know
That's just the way it goes (x3)

A Fuzzy 17th^.^

2011-03-22T10:42:00.012+08:00

Dee look, the single eyelids goodness. No one can beat us!!

My weekend was dead busy and tiring!! But enjoyable at the same time:) Buddies came over-talked, ate, laughed, farted, played, disturbed......... and the list goes on.

DEONN: My single eyelid, laughter club cum confidante pal DEE. Talked through the wee hours and had coffee to keep us awake. Yes, we talk about everything. And that's what I loved most. Dee, msges from you are like essays long and they are so sweet, moving and encouraging. Nonetheless, my 2 full years with you has been great and memorable. You can tahan my pinching right? So strong and power-pack!!

Without you, atika, den and shirl who helped me start the fire and bbq-ed the food, despite ashes flying all over your body and grease that filled your hands plus sweat to top everything on, this small scale party wouldnt have succeeded.... Ok I'm not sure you can read that whole paragraph as logical as I can. But yeah, these are the thoughts that came through my brain and I'm so afraid that I would forget to pen it down. So hence, the running lines:\

I'm patiently waiting for JO JO to upload her photos that she took. I want to see how spasm my face is in all the pics. Smiling continuously for 10-12 single shots with everyone. No joke. My mouth literally trembled...

So never did I expect strangers to come into our rooms to play card games with us.. Kinda different rendition of BDs huh. Luckily we do have enough numbers/ I was half awake when I played and spoilt 2 rounds, so I decided to withdraw and laugh at ppl instead. I feel so mean. But hey, they deserved it...

Now, I need to stay away from BD cakes. I will gear towards BD cupcakes from now on ^.~ Hehehhehe/

Oh yes, DEE will you be free on the 10th April? Come out for flea with us. :) Text me!!

I'll catch you soon!!

Mirror Findings

2011-03-14T19:36:00.005+08:00

Finally laid my hands on YSL collector's item last weekend. So happy!!!!!
Got myself the palette pop collector face powder.
So, I practically ran through the first week of march and here I am in the third week of march.

Money entered; Money flew. Is that how it's supposed to be? Ok, maybe you can call me a spendthrift but hey, I BUDGET... :)

My weekend was spent at Suntec, visiting all the convention centres filled with exhibition. Namely the IT fair which I felt was so chaotic plus total loss of business ethics-sales personnel were touting their business whenever each customer gave a slight glance to their products or even their faces. Next, it was the Prada sale. I dont see much difference in the prices of the bags.. I dont know if it is just me// But perhaps just a 100-250$ knock off. You still see the 4 figures in some of them. So my advise, window shopping would do just fine. :)

And till we meet again!!!

Instant Gratification

2011-02-28T19:49:00.002+08:00

Few more hours till MARCH COMES. And that's my BDAY month. ^.^
Let's create another folder in our life. It shall be named "Dreams Galore". A place where it doesnt even appear in the human world. Mixing and Churning ideas/designs/words/colours/gadgets/style/moves/potions and the list goes on...
It'll be nice to see the products of your own personal innovation that no one actually has huh?

Looking for nice blazers recently. Kinda difficult to match those I saw with the ones that I "created" in my mind unknowingly. (Sort of a higher standard, I guess) Btw, did my brows today. Hehehe. No more fussing over it.

Summer Camp is coming up. I WANT TO GO. It'll be a real good training for me. :)
Last Month of working life:\
Intrigued by different mindset of thinking..

Never Doubt What I Love

2011-02-19T19:59:00.002+08:00

It's been a while since I logged on to this space. Well, we are over and done with CNY. (after the 15 days of it) I've been dead tired. Seems like I'm sold to People's Association already.. But I just look forward to work. I think it is the people there that made the working journey fun-filled. Never a day I gone without laughter. Never/

Did you folks went to Flash Light Batteries flea today at The Pits?!? There were just too many stalls. Guess what? I got myself a pretty little piece of leopard suit. HEHEH. Luv it bby!!!^.^ The plus fact was that I got it for a really cheap deal. A thing that I noticed about myself: When I was younger, my wardrobe used to be filled with clothings from Guess, Blossom,Fox, Zara kids, United Colours of Benetton, Kids 21 etc (all the brands la if you see the pattern) And at present, there are only 3-5 pieces that actually has labels on them. They rest are practically from Pasar Malam, Fleas, Online etc. (Practically "un-labelled") Such a materialistic girl when I was just a little fry..

Finally, I discovered that my favourite snack is Camel- Sugar Nuts. I've been feeding on them quite frequently. And on the other side on my mind, I'm thinking about what harm it may cause to my body. Tooth decay, chipping of tooth, DIABETES and spasms of the jaws(chewing too long plus much). See what risks I've put myself in for just a packet of nuts that are just worth a dollar or so. But seriously, trust me if you get a chance to just feed on them. They are just good. Plain good. Recently, I ate the whole packet in a day or two. Scary isnt it. HAHAHHA. But I just got really guilty after that. Dont be like me though.. / Ok I sound like I'm promoting the "Camel" brand. A Marketing course would suffice it. :)

I would want to take up Street Jazz some time soon. Plus Yoga for core & body strengthening. Also, the making of kaleidoscope and mosaic art. Seems like there's too much for me to learn and handle.. Let's see how my schedule goes/

Till then,
I'll catch you soon!!!

This Season

2011-02-05T20:22:00.008+08:00

Had a tummy-filling reunion dinner. I think I over-ate/

So spent my day 2 of cny outdoors. Was at Sentosa flower display and I got there by the newly built boardwalk. A nice 700m walk. The blazing sun was there to accompany me. Yes, blazing and piping hot!!~

Day 3 which is today. I went on a post cny shopping spree. Got some good deals. Those 50%-70% discounts are appearing today.. So hurry go get some clothes or what not. It's just $$$ worth.

BB FOR NOW!!^.^

Club Titanium

2011-01-29T13:18:00.009+08:00

Jesus saves. Be a fighter/

Prime Time

2011-01-18T20:00:00.010+08:00

Day out on Monday with them^.^ Massive shopping. Got my cheap boyfriend shirt!!!!! Plus all the nonsense. Nets it!! RAN THE WHOLE TOWN. NOT JUST ONCE BUT SEVERAL? That'll be the exercise for the week. HAHAH.

And hey, my U.S plan somehow didnt happen?!? Sigh. Whose on with me?!? Feel so you know sad and ya down:/ Ok.. CNY JUST ROUND THE CORNER. EVERYTHING'S JUST TOO FAST. BUT I SOMEHOW MISS SCH..

Lastly, my planner is just filled with notes, quotes, to-do, appt etc etc. It's gonna be flooded. Is it just me or does it also apply to you too?

Seize This

2011-01-15T20:00:00.002+08:00

I hope the hype for Os results is somewhat fizzling soon?
Been through it and survived/
Why poly doesnt have the course of lyrics writing? I would love to initiate that as a course if anybody just allows me to do that. A point: I believe composing lyrics is less taxing than composing songs.

Takeaway: sometimes the job you are doing in the future does not require that really intelligent brain.

Leaving that with you.

NOSTALGIA

2011-01-08T20:35:00.002+08:00

Did you had a good start for 2011? Kick that habit that you wanted all along? Any Regrets?

And so.. All of us have just gone through the first week of Jan 2011. For me it was just pretty alright. Just that I took some time adjusting to write the date. Did it happen to you too? Ok this shows that I'm not adaptable. (tryna be a character analyser here) HEH.

Decisions, Plans, Conclusions are sealing our fate in just a while. Dont probe me no matter what.

Bringing my brain back to Dec every now and then(if I'm alone left with no tasks). Just to jot my memory a little so that the sweetest will be etched in that tiny compartment.

I FEEL A TRIBAL OMEN FOR FASHION THIS SEASON.

KISS THOSE SECRETS GOODBYE

2010-12-31T22:18:00.013+08:00

Spent the day out with them. It's about an hour and a half to the new year. Well, somehow I'm just anticipating it. Not knowing what will happen. It could be just a plan great year or the opposite. In all my lives, I detest the unknown. There's no hidden reason for it if you are wondering. You reader might welcome 2011 with a big heart. I'm just a tad hesitant about it. Those months, days, minutes, seconds spent with friends, work and trouble are just going to be wiped away. 2010 has it's magnificent memories and I cannot bear to leave it behind. Perhaps, the thought of having to get the results on the 2nd week of Jan puts 2011 a heavy note to start-weighing it down.

RESOLUTIONS:-Hope that I'll adapt well in the school that I'm in and have friends. (Cause normally I'm not the one that always strike a convo)---that's not 'dao' btw.

-Lesser materialistic nature.

-Make the right decisions with no regrets.

So after my perspective of 2011, I'll share with you my recent ecstasy. Bon Jovi's latest cd-The Circle has finally made it's way down to my collection of cds well I would say my top 50 song list. Proud to announce that the group though old is still kicking ass with great rock vocals. The lyrics just clearly explains what life is and having coming full cycle of it. You can compare it with the phases of the moon-a direct analogy.

I really want to have the power to know what the future really holds for me.

Have a Happy & Eventful NEW YEAR!!!!!!!!

FESTIVE

2010-12-25T20:38:00.003+08:00

First, MERRY WHITE XMAS TO ALL!!!!! Hope you had your very own rendition of xmas.
Well, I had my own. No turkey, ham, roast chicken and what not. I had the extreme. HAHAHA. The only thing that fits perfectly was the hazlenut cream logcake. It has been my all time favourite since the very first time I celebrated xmas proper^.~ Never got tired of it. Thinking of it late at night makes me feel real guilty. Those thick cream topping over the sponge.. You can count the extra pounds after eating it. I dont really fancy the fresh cream tho..

Right now, I'm excited for the upcoming outing!!!!!!!!!! Finally a tad of social life. I wont feel like a cave lady living in my own space.

PS/ TIME TO BID DEC GOODBYE:\

Wolves Den

2010-12-23T20:30:00.005+08:00

According to Native Americans,

dreams that humans have while they sleep,

they are sent by sacred spirits as messages.

According to their Legend,

in the center of the Dream Catcher there is a hole.

Good dreams are permitted to reach the sleeper through this hole in the web.

As for the bad dreams,

the web traps them and they disappear at dawn with the first light.

For some, they try to determine what messages are being past onto them and what the message represents.

"Humankind has not woven the web of life.

We are but one thread within it.

Whatever we go to the web,

we do ourselves.

All things are bound together.

All things connect."

-Chief Seattle-

Side View

2010-12-18T20:15:00.004+08:00

Another week passed without me knowing.
When you are at work, time passes real fast. It is at an indescribable speed.
Another more and it will be the season of greetings. XMAS BABY!! (waiting to collect presents)
Currently, I'm loving my work. But.. I'm afraid to meet those Big Shots. (The shyness beneath me.)
I got a treat from one of my colleagues-KOI. HEHEH.
Ok, I miss you. Yes you my pals. I feel that I have no social life. What about you? Do you feel the same as me?

Btw, anyone want to get me an authentic dream catcher for xmas? I'm just finding for the right one since forever.. And perhaps you could just suprise me? Heh.

JAN IS MAKING IT'S WAY. RESULTS. IS IT TOO FAST? AM I SCARING YOU? You know what? Let's face it. No more running for miles aimlessly.

"When there is a spark in you, just ignite and let it shine"

Golden Timeline

2010-12-11T20:28:00.002+08:00

Started work proper. I'm working for the government. Love my colleagues. They are all adults and I feel weird calling them by their name. Literally by their name with no Mr, Mrs etc. On a lighter note, I'm not the only young one alone. I still have another newbie. ^.^

I'm facing enquires almost everyday. Enquiries face-to-face and on the phone. So when you get to see me again, please dont question me/ I want to catch up with you!!!!!(dee and atika) But.. I just dont know where to start.

An underage girl who wants to go ZoukOut. (That girl is me.) I shall wait patiently for another 2 more years.. Why must pubs limit the age to let people in?!? Another 1 or 2 years wont really make a difference. :\ Sighhh.

Went for flea at Alcova today. Got a pretty cheap romper. HEHEHHEHE. Planning to go for the 18th one at *Scape..

And.. I will end it here for now.
Tune in/

Hard Rock

2010-12-06T20:29:00.010+08:00

Went for Elaina's Sweet 16^.^ Woah it was kick ass. GREAT!!! Love the one at Hard Rock Cafe.
Elaina: TYVM for the treat your parents gave all of us. I know it certainly didnt came cheap by looking at the menu. The atmosphere was perfect. Your cake was the highest I ever came across for a birthday party(besides those for weddings). HAHAHA. Hope you like the present. ^.~

Ok enough of partying. Off to work tmr. No more high life:\ My stepping stone into a working world. Oh well, maybe I will still get to surf the net if I have no tasks. I hope to finish "Dear John" by end of this week. Then, I'll move on to another good book.

IM TOP OF THE MOON AT THE MOMENT........ I NOW OWN A ATM CARD!!!!! ok, bet yall not as excited as me cause you already own one. But hey, it is something joyous for me:)

Oh my, I want to go for the flea this weekend.. Needa stock up on my cheap stuffz. HEHHE. I hope my off-day is on that day? Now, my planner is gonna come in real handy. It can be my "paper" com where I'll note down appointments etc.

Alright, enough of me. So folks, how's life with December? A month has just passed.. Did you spent it wisely? For me, I think I didnt.

Anticipating for the new blockbuster channel 8 show at 9pm. Waiting for it to blow my mind.

With the next chapter crawling/

Whatever You Got

2010-12-01T20:29:00.002+08:00

Pals, as time goes by, we meet lesser and lesser.
I post this to you "What do you hold the longest?"
I turned, there was no one. Empty miles that I've completed myself.
Not my best this week.
Magenta streaks to add colour to my ever so mundane lifestyle.
If ladyluck is with me, $$ by next week?
Everyone and everybody is in their own world, doing their own things, living the way they want.
I'm just laid back. That's what I cannot stand about myself.
Decode me/
My mood is tunning in to Christmas now.
Love this season everytime of the year.
If I continue living my life like this, I can be compared to an outcast.

No more. No more of such days.

Prom Princesses

2010-11-27T21:10:00.010+08:00

Had Grad lunch at the Hilton. Memories flashed back. Yes, sweet ones^.^ My throat hurts a hell especially after Red Camp. It could be due to close contact with people and I might have caught the virus from someone who is sick OR due to continuous screaming. :\

Sigh. Ok. Moving on the Grad. It seems like this is perhaps the last chance that the whole class or even the whole graduating classes are seeing each other. I'll savour these moments/

Apache \m/

2010-11-25T20:31:00.003+08:00

Yes back from Red Camp 7.. I WOULD CERTAINLY LOVE TO STAY THERE LONGER. WHO DOESNT?!!??! Love the cheers for each tribe and not to say the SLs. They were HOT STUFF,baby!! Not kidding~

Went visiting to various schools. Particularly love the 'Film & Media Studies' school. Advertising and Public Relations!! ^.^ The in-house DJs sound real smooth on air. (Heatwave by Ngee Ann Poly) The people are just real lively. You cannot even smell boredom there. They were just too happening/ Oh my!!

And boy, the last day was a blast. I didnt expect it to end on such a high note. Yeah I knew there was a 'Hop Party' but never did I expect it would blew the whole crowd!!!!
You can call it an "Underage Clubbing Night"-all the 16 and 17 years old. The spotlights created a hype feeling.Seriously, You can never find anyone who just stood still.

Right now, waiting for Shi Ting to upload the photos. (winks)

We are Red, Hot, Super Cute Apaches(x3)
We gonna poke, poke, poke, poke, poke your face!!!!!!! \m/

Hidden Messages

2010-11-21T20:33:00.006+08:00

Had Family Day on Saturday. Though it seemed a little more grand with exhilarating rides and a larger variety of food stalls, but somehow I didnt felt that impactful. Sad to say but ya. :\ Okay now that it's over, I've more things to occupy me. Red camp for the next 3 days at Ngee Ann poly. Really hoping it will be a blast. (keeping fingers crossed) Prom to sum up my week. What a eventful week. Love things to be planned ^.^ Yes, you are right. I'm a happy child.

I'll feed you folks more news after the camp.

Currently, the radio has been my sweet companion. I rely on it to give me the latest and current news, gossips, hits etc.

Hang in there!!

Hollow

2010-11-18T22:12:00.002+08:00

I want a trip inside your head
Spend the day there...
To hear the things you haven't said
And see what you might see

I wanna hear you when you call
Do you feel anything at all?
I wanna see your thoughts take shape
And walk right out

Freedom has a scent
Like the top of a new born baby's head

The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've seen enough I'm not giving up
On a miracle drug

Of science and the human heart
There is no limit
There is no failure here sweetheart
Just when you quit...

I am you and you are mine
Love makes no sense of space
And time...will disappear
Love and logic keep us clear
Reason is on our side, love...

The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've had enough of romantic love
I'd give it up, yeah, I'd give it up
For a miracle, a miracle drug, a miracle drug

God I need your help tonight

Beneath the noise
Below the din
I hear your voice
It's whispering
In science and in medicine
"I was a stranger
You took me in"

The songs are in your eyes
I see them when you smile
I've had enough of romantic love
Yeah, I'd give it up, yeah, I'd give it up
For a miracle, miracle drug

Miracle, miracle drug (U2)

Excitement

2010-11-17T11:28:00.010+08:00

IKEA ON THE 15TH!! ^.^

Back On Board

2010-11-12T18:56:00.004+08:00

I M O F F I C I A L L Y O V E R A N D D O N E W I TH 'O' S, BABY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes, no more tight schedule and stressing over studies. 'Freedom' would now be the word that occupy these few months to come/ Now that I do not have to go to school, the part I detest most is to plan for the holidays. No more usual timetable. I somehow feel lost? More of stepping into a whole new level of a typical xbox game. Free time now does not equates to fitting a gazillion of equations into your brain and regurgitating whatever facts you have memorised. Well, school to me is like my "security blanket" as I know for sure everyday I wake up there is something installed for me and that I clearly know I wont be investing my time on unproductive tasks. I'm weighing the pros and cons here. So.. that would be what I clearly miss at the very moment.

Some would plan to step into the working life. I DO EVER CONSIDER THAT. However, I would like to indulge myself in a more enriching experience. I would certainly love to take up another language. Who's with me?!! No, not those Asians but French. ^.^ Currently, it would be under my "to-do" list. (but ranking the last?)

I've still yet to satisfy myself. Visiting the 'Universal Studios' is a place I've longed to visit. Love being stuck in that magnificent castle and exhilarating rides etc. (looking at the brochures..) I believe you would call me a dreamer? Yes, I wouldn't deny that. That one moment can even transport me to a place that does not even exist. No one would ever know. And yes, back to reality-------

Top priority now is to hunt my PROM outfit!!!!!!! Do not ever remind me. I know I'm really late.
Flipping through the calendar, I realised that we are bidding November goodbye. Exams really can make a month pass real fast. I should put my mind at ease knowing that I've survived it all. (phewww) Doing the exam is not challenging but waiting for the results is testing your tolerance level-testing to see if you can accept the fact that is painted black and white right before your eyes. That, is what I called challenging.

Now, let's see where the wind will take you/

That's for now. Tired of typing and staring into the com's screen.
I'll catch you soon, babes!! ^.~

A Little Breather-

2010-09-17T17:35:00.004+08:00

Daily life is harsh, and most of us constantly seek escape from it in fantasies and dreams.

Stars feed on this weakness; standing out from the others through a distinctive and appealing style, they make us want to watch them. At the same time, they are vague and ethereal, keeping their distance, and letting us imagine more than is there. Their dreamlike quality works on our unconscious; we are not even aware how much we imitate them. (Robert Greene)

I happen to chance upon this and it caught my attention the very minute.

Away from books a little while. Back to it very soon/

WITH THIS, IM ON HAITUS;

With promises, I'll catch you soon!!

On Its Last Bend

2010-08-20T19:23:00.004+08:00

It didnt used to be this way.
I'm afraid to see drastic changes.
Nice to see that you've grown out of that timid self. But do make the best out of it.
The day that we may go our separate ways may soon be knocking our doors. I'm aware of that.
I adhere to my own set of morals while it might be different for you.

Some said that you've become too bold nowadays. I chose not to believe them. But now, I'm halfway into that statement.
I really long for your old self where you were more sensitive. Where has that sensitivity gone?

When you chose not to say anything, I'm fine with that. Keep that and we'll be strangers. When too many comes knocking on your door, befriending you, do you feel something isnt in place? I hate those "touch and go(s)". It is literally excruciating to sieve out those sincere ones and eliminate the others. Having said that, I'm loosing my stamina in tolerating whines and other forms of nasty tones.

"In the real world, it is more tough and cunning than you think it is"
From experience, sometimes following your own heart could even back fire you. I'm really weary of that.

PS/ This could be my last few posts before I battle with those several monsters.

I'll catch you soon/

STARSTRUCK

2010-08-17T18:02:00.003+08:00

The Click 5's on Sunday. It was free. Got into the VIP area thanks to Elaina and Ana-mei. ^^
YES, HOT IS THE WORD.
Had o's english oral today. I found it good? Well is not as bad as I expected. HAHA.
Lastly, I'll upload the pictures of the concert prolly end of this week? Stay tune.

I can see your shadow lying in the moonlight
I can hear your heartbeat playing on my right side
Every night I long for this, makin' up what I miss
I can hear you breathing letting out a sad sigh

You tried so hard to hide your scars
Always on your guard

Don't, don't let me go
Don't make me hold on when you're not
Don't, don't turn away
What can I say so you wont
No don't, don't let me go...

I can see the skyline fading in the distance
Tears are comin' down
I'm trying just to make sense
I don't listen to the radio just the engine and the road
I wonder if my words are makin' any difference
I dream and then it seem to end
But always come again
I'm comin' down

To where you're standing
I need you now or you'll be watchin'
Me hit the ground
With crashing in...

Don't let me go...
Don't let me go... (TC5)

The Only Island

2010-08-07T22:13:00.010+08:00

Had an early National Day Celebration yesterday in school. As usual, I didnt wear R&W. Not that I dont want to, but there are just too many restrictions. Hate to accustom to them:\ The National Anthem will always be sung loudly after the whole performance. Well, you'll never hear that kinda volume on a ever normal school day. --Dont look at me-- I sing no matter if it's National Day or not. Certainly felt more belonged to the country. ^^

I know it is really not the right time to go out as the majors are approaching.. But, I feel I needed some happy time. So yes I went out. To Town. Had oyster mee sua and tako poachi for lunchhh. Yes sucha glutton!! This was all that gave me energy to walk and shop around.

It was a real pity that we couldnt get to catch 'Salt' due to the eager response from others. Tickets were all sold out!!!!! Movies that are screening now are kinda more action packed and not the romance kind anymore. Too much for me to handle/ Oh I caught 'Street Dance' last weekend with my mom. The dancing was superb. I kept my eyes on those tone abs. Absolutely Mesmerizing!! Besides for the "Ever-So-Predictable-Ending" the show was nice for picking up suave moves. Well, it is just a male ballet dancer falling in love with a female street dancer. A very cliche kinda story line. I hope this doesnt spoil the ending for you.

PS: A man promoter, representing a credit card company, approached shirl and me asking us whether we own a credit card? Do we even look that old? I G U E S S N O T.

I'll not post that frequent after this. Need to keep my eyes fixed to those books.

Fix This

2010-07-31T21:56:00.001+08:00

There will always be a 'lie' in Believe,

an 'over' in lover,

an 'end' in friends,

an 'us' in trust,

and an 'if' in life..

Invincible Like You

2010-07-30T17:42:00.004+08:00

There are 2 sides to every story and I always hate it.
The weather this week was made for sleeping in. Sorry but I dont understand why people are afraid of being cold. It beats having a hot weather for 365 days right? If walking around naked wasnt a crime, I think I might be the first to do that. Even Jay agrees with me.. Sick and tired of rants and laments. Give me a break will you? Do not even care about me. I'm perfectly fine with that If you ever did wonder. I do take a little pity of those who do not have friends. Can I take your positions?

Again, human nature to take shield for yourselves instead and just wash your hands of everything. For everything, I fight for survival. Have you? I guess amongst all, my life was THE most "tricky" to begin with. Not simple but a more complex one.

A last breath before everything just speeds up. In everything there is no take two. Therefore, the idea of me wanting to "reboot- my-life- just- like- a- computer" is not ever, not a single chance of ever coming true/

Called a "Joker". It just means that people do not take you seriously. Just so you know, I was named that. I should've brush it off instead of mentioning it..

Excuse me while I kiss the sky-

Street Spirits

2010-07-23T18:50:00.003+08:00

Another long gruelling week. Today's been special. An extremely queer one. I've been given the prelims timetable. It just simply means that I am not any further from the hell day. I use to bury myself alive in those "laughters" what you define as "the-right-me". I want to break out of it. Yet, at the back of my mind i know that no one will accept this erratic change I've long decided to do.

Have you noticed that the past few days have been raining? I interpreted it as a bad omen. Today was kinda a "jinx" for me? 7:02 was the time I opened my eyes. Yes, you might have thought how I got school without being late. It was suprising how I was ready at 710 . 720 was when I stepped into the school ground. To be exact, after 725 you are considered late. It was a close shave. BACK TO THE BAD OMEN.. I just do not know how to spell out my thoughts about it. I shall give it a miss.

Everything's not right for me. It felt as though I'm on a wrong track. I want to be guided like the old days. I do not want to do everything myself. Now, the world seems to be the object I get intimidated of. Can I choose to have supernatural powers? I want to envision myself in the years to come.

You've changed, I believe I myself have to. I hope to accept the current you, but I'm having internal conflict with myself that I myself do not even comprehend. So let me try overcome it.

All of you might have not known, my family is kinda out of sorts. Laughing to themselves is their current trend. The question I post to you is "Are you afraid?"

I want to get a new notebook. The current one seems to be infected by virus? I'm using a desktop which I am not comfortable with.

TIME TO GET READY FOR MY DANCE CLASS.

This machine will, will not communicate
These thoughts and the strain I am under
Be a world child, form a circle
Before we all go under
And fade out again and fade out again..

PS/ As a friend would you stop judging. Dont look as though I'm some kinda alien perspiring. YES I'M DIFFERENT IN UNCOUNTABLE WAYS. MANY HAVE NOT KNOWN THEM ALL BY HEART YET. You should not have the right to judge because I see myself in a positive light.
Lastly, I like being different. Sometimes I wish to befriend those unpopular ones in class.

And You'll Be There/

2010-07-19T19:01:00.002+08:00

Need some eye-candy? Here's one. They really got hot bod. ^.Oh well I think I'm really getting tired of my life. I look at this and this gives me incentive. Ok wait wait wait, I sound like some female pervert. Oh dont get me wrong. It is just natural for every girl to go "ga-ga" over this kinda thing, needless to say.

Singapore couldnt be any warmer. As I'm sitting here typing relentlessly, I can literally feel a drop of perspiration down my head. (Ew?) Sigh what to do..
I'm in the midst of EVU & I hope to get over and done with like any time nowwww!!
I've got GEOGGGGG AND ALL. So therefore, in life, we sometimes need to find some enjoyment before we can go on any further. ( Like the above picture)

TOO HOT TO HANDLE. Ok, enough of my shit.

I'll catch you soon!!

VOYAGE DE LA VIE

2010-07-16T19:02:00.011+08:00

I couldnt find time to blog hence the a late post here. I still cant get over the hype. It has been a week and flashes of the show are still going through my mind. Yeah just as you expected, no photography was allowed and I couldnt capture those fantastic scenes. Oh well even if I took a shot or two, you might not even figure out what is what.

I wouldnt mind going for the 2nd time. Or maybe infinity. I JUST LIKE IT. ^^ It was so thrilling and at one point in time my teeth was clenching together so much so that I could exactly feel the adrenaline for the acrobats. Oh my/ They were too flexible maybe only soft bones were left in them..

Well I sound like Im promoting the show. Heh. But it's really good. You will crave for moreeeeee!!

Okay.. Moving on to my ever so mundane school week. Recently, MY LIFE has been literally been bombarded with TESTS and MORE TESTS.. One after another. No rest. Ive just cleared 3 of them and mind you there is more to come. I couldnt agree more that Sec 4's life can literally be compared to a dog's life. You stay in school for like 3/4 of your life-just like a dog who stay in a kennel. See the link?!

SUNDAY IM GOING FOR BIG WALK(The Newpaper). HAHHA whose joining me man?! :)

ALRIGHT, IM DONE ENTERTAINING YOU. SEE YOU.

-DELAYED-

2010-07-15T18:08:00.004+08:00

I Have Promises To Keep.

Watch this space/

Stuck In The Moment-

2010-07-09T19:25:00.004+08:00

All I can say that this week was packed and exhausting.
Skipped couple of lessons after school just for auditions. Felt so guilty..
I end at 5 almost everyday. On a positive side, it gives me reason to at least work my brains.
As I'm typing this, I can feel my heavy eyelids:\ They can hardly open. Guess what? I've got class later. Let's see how I overcome this internal conflict within me.

Pushing everything aside, IM CATCHING VOYAGE DE LA VIE THIS SUNDAYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!! \m/. Couldnt be more excited than ever!!!
But before that, I need to bury myself in chemistry. I have a test on tuesday/

Trains in the sky
Are travelling
Through fragments of time
They're taking me to parts
Of my mind
That no one can find..

No Line On The Horizon

2010-07-04T21:46:00.003+08:00

An incident that was living proof that I am definitely not COMPUTER FRIENDLY.
This coming week will determine my fate. (Part of it.) I have 2 auditions to clear. TJC on tues and CJC on wed. (FUN RIGHT?!?) Me having a mindset that these auditions will be choreographed for and music will be played. But little did I expect the other way round-"I" HAVE TO DO EVERYTHING. It just shortens my life I tell you. I only found out on late wed that I have to do all that myself. Yes I PANICKED!! OBVIOUSLY. BUT NOW, NO MORE. I'VE CLEARED IT. The music was the one that was giving me a helluva headache. Now that I've sorta mastered it, I shall put it to GOOD USE. Edit/Cut/Fade out and copying it on the cd. To you it may sound amateur but certainly not for me.

The night before my 'O' levels MT oral, I spent 80% of my time on that. With the amount of time I spent on it, you might have think that I succeed. But you are wrong. I BURST INTO FLAMES WHEN IT DIDNT TURN OUT RIGHT. Oh boy, I bothered camel. Sorry girl girlll!! :
I sorta think that I didnt rambled nonsense on the actual exam day. (Acc to my memory, i guess)

Now that everything is more or less in place, I feel at peace sleeping through the night without thinking about that technical problem I've encountered. :\
SEEING THE AMOUNT OF TIME I'VE WASTED.. SURELY YOU WOULDNT WANT TO SEE ME FAIL HUH. HAHAHAH.

Yes lady luck, I need you BIG TIME!!!!!!!!^.<

Laws Of Illusion

2010-06-29T19:19:00.003+08:00

Confirmation was good. Received many flowers.
HAHAHA. Epic moment on that day. S & E. Scandalous^.<
In this universe, whatever you desire the universe will (always) transpire in your favour.
But I want to be piggyback like the above. ^^ It never happened :\
Back to the topic..
Olevels chinese oral just spoilt my week. Mind you, mine is the 2nd July=2nd day :\
I'll tremble big time!! WAIT & SEE.

What I see and feel is sometimes not the genuine feelings. What to do?
I'll equate the world to "A Barbie World". All will find their own "Ken", while some do not.
I'm the only exception. Yes, I have the final say.
I do not know why I have this ice wall in front of me. It has its pros & cons.
I think you've got me all wrong.
I dont regret this life I chose for me.
But these places and these faces are getting old..
I'm going home/

On a lighter note,
I might be catching "Voyage De La Vie" this weekend? M A Y B E IS THE WORD.
I REALLY WANT TO!!!!!! I want to immerse myself in that illusion and fantasy that no one ever shake you out of it.

I like you for who you are \m/

Stuck In An Ice Cube;

2010-06-25T22:45:00.002+08:00

For the first time in a long time,
I'm happy to be right here,
It's not about the destination.

Cause the moment you arrive
you find what you're looking for/
It has always been right inside
right there in your heart.

On this beautiful journey;
right here..
Forever it will be. (Voyage De La Vie)

PS/ WHAT A LIFE I GOT. I EXIST TO THINK FOR SOLUTIONS FOR PEOPLE. I'll do as I'm deem fit then. I'm not in the mood to communicate. I'll emote anger if I just type anything out. :
I like where I'll be tmr. Other than that, nothing. School's starting. The word "busy schedule" will definitely not leave me alone. I WANNA CRY- If you could be my sweet escape, I would gladly fall into your arms. Now, anger just supersedes everything.
Beyond control is that 2 words I'm looking for/

MJ's ANNIVERSARY TODAY. His programme is now on till 2am? Go catch it. R.I.P. \m/

A Tough Nut

2010-06-24T16:32:00.011+08:00

Tues was Jas & Kim's 16th partyyy. It was alright except the drizzle:\

----All the alcohol and cigarettes/----

Where Do We Go From Here;

2010-06-20T22:31:00.005+08:00

Was too zonked out ytd night after numerous rounds of walking up and down.
Went for the Gazillion Bubble Show at Downtown. Met Atika at Whitesands and trained down to cityhall to meet Elaina.
PS/ ATIKA BITCH, TYVM FOR WALKING THE WHOLE ENTIRE WHITESANDS WITH ME.
Oh my, Supperclub was a huge mess. It was hot and stuffy. A totally NO NO to claustrophobic folks. Well Im really glad that I curb my expenditure. ^^ I deserve a big clap!! HAHAH.
Head on to a nearby macs to fill our little tummies.
Met Shirleen at Bugis. That silly girl do not know how to go clarke quay directly. So yeah. Made a special trip to Bugis for her sake. Clarke Quay: Homeclub. Stalls were definitely much lesser than what we saw at Supperclub but bought something there. We saw familiar faces/

Dinner at Subway. So filling:\ Guess what?! We went back to Supperclub again. This time they were all packing and about to vacate. Luckily shirleen bought something if not our trip there would be a wasteeeeeeee. Okay. Tired from continuous typing.

PICS ANOTHER TIME8)

The Basics

2010-06-18T14:08:00.002+08:00

I would love to picture you with the back of my mind;

Would You Let Me?

I want to sleep through the day not knowing what is happening/

A Replica

2010-06-16T22:11:00.012+08:00

If you ever need stress relievers. Call them. HAHA. They are the best. No one else but them.

We make words that dont make a single sense, we laugh at each other, we scold each other(joking way huh), we hug, we are going to move on to kisses soon(awww), we bitch, we eat like there is no tomorrow(pasta & puffs^^) But hey, they all for a good cause. HAHAH. You can go crazy studying on your own. Dont Do That Often=IT MIGHT BLOW YOU UP. It may work for you. So if it does, just continue it. Forget about what I've just said. Wah I'm getting incoherent alr. Oh wellyzzz..

YAY I'M GOING FOR FLEASSSSS WITH BUDDIESz!! Holidays are drifting faster and faster away from me. It is just like a big passing cloud-it comes and go. A moment of reverie to be lost in. A wonderful feeling.. But, not for long. We will get back to serious stuffs once all that play is over:\

I love tuitions. They enlighten me further. I see sums in a different light. A brighter and more positive perspective. WHAT A JOYYY!!

Did I MENTION BEFORE THAT I LOVE YOU? YES YOU. HAHAH. You little brat reading this post. (that'll be alot of people I would love, oh boy!) HAHAHHA. Yes I'm quite happy and light all of a sudden. Most probably the same feeling as a drug addict being fed again with ecstasy/

Heyaaaaa Shirleen, you idiot. I know all your darkest secrets pal. Dont try hid from me. I know who have you been hanging out with now huh. *cheeky smile*. You are the GREATEST BITCH TO ME. GOSSIPS AND ALL no. 1!! Pal, you suck!! HAHAH. Oh well, I will still love you even though your *boyfriend* is having second thoughts about breaking up with you. What a scene man!!

K, Im so noisy.

BYE LITTLE BABES.

I'll catch you soon!!

Vthn/

In A Different Light-

2010-06-14T13:02:00.003+08:00

I somehow detest babies when they cry and all but, ironically, I want to experience their life all over again.

You look good and adorable even without a single strand of hair.
Whenever you cry, people give you their fullest attention and care.
You dont have to care about what goes on in the world today.
When you want food you just open your mouth.
Money does not come into the picture.
You look cute in every single pictures even those unglam ones.
People do not judge you because you do not have any teeth.
You get the best complexion that all adore.
You do not have to solve problems.
You get to be carried.
You do not get labelled for hanging around boys-playing and laughing.
Crying is your powerful tool to get what you want/

Basically, you are treated like a prince/princess.

Soon Everything Changes,
IS ALL THE OPPOSITE.
After experiencing them for long, you really wish you were still a small kid. A kid that never got old. How splendid.

Rachel Wong's house tmr for homework.
18th for confirmation rehearsal.
19th for some bubble show? FLEA later in the afternoon/night^^

PS/ I'm DSA-ing TO TJC AND CJC. WISH ME LUCK PALS. 8)

VANESSA IS TIRED. VANESSA WANTS TO EAT. VANESSA NEEDS SOMEONE TO TALK TO. VANESSA H8s THE POLITICS GOING AROUND. VANESSA EATS MORE THAN A NORMAL PERSON. VANESSA HASNT LAUGH CRAZILY FOR A LONG PERIOD OF TIME. VANESSA SHOULD STOP TYPING LIKE A ZOMBIE NOW.

ok. I'll catch you soon. Watch this space/

The Thoughts;

2010-06-10T12:13:00.004+08:00

You Have Your Aspirations And I Have Mine;
WWW tomorrow^^ Hopes the weather would not be like today. I WANT THE SUN. ^^ YES PLSSS.
Maroon is the colour. I love prata suddenly.
Lastly how to do motion of particle?! MY AMATH HW. :/ Oh boy.
CLAIRE TAN: CAMP PICTURES!!
I'm actually quite proud of myself. I actually didnt wait till the very last minute to start on my holiday homework. I'm in the midst of it. So YAY~
No one want to wear bikini with me. I shall stand out. Okay.
Alright, so I've just rambled on and on and no one is stopping me.
So much to say, so much so that I've not organised my thoughts properly. WHAT A MESS!!

I shall hit my homework now~
I'll catch you soon babes/

I Want To Know/

2010-06-03T16:29:00.004+08:00

I Have A Convoluted Life Ahead Of Me.
And when you promised someone a moon, you are not making any difference to her life.
By sitting down and doing nothing is a real kick in the teeth for me.
After today, I'll be away on camp. I ever wondered who would dearly miss me/
Next, I'll get another hole in me.

Like I always ask myself: "Will I Be Able To Complete The Race With Victory?"
I never found an answer. Or perhaps it could just be a dream question that I longed wanted to know.
I want to get back to the time where complexity was not even known to me.
Some how, The older you get, the more you need to fight to sustain in this society.
When you were younger, all was provided. Wouldnt it be so lovely if we just get wait upon by people around you? I believe so/

"Love Yourself First Before Others Can Love You". I've always adhered to this quote. You could do the same.
When sometimes everything fails right before you- WHAT DO YOU DO?
Kiddos, bet you never thought about that right?
I do stay awake thinking why do people around me behave like this and why do people go for fame? So it is best I stay asleep for 24 hours everyday. I never believe people are as nice as they can be. Yes, I am being over sensitive. And that is precisely why your senses and feelings are implanted on you.

This blog has always been on pending for a new splash of colours. But I really do not know what to do about it. Me equates to NOT-A-IT-SAVVY kid. I can be labelled as the really "backdated" 21st century kid. No one else can take that title away from me. :

It was you who made me up, and the same you who almost...

Let's Replay History,

\/THN

Yet Another Farewell

2010-05-31T14:33:00.003+08:00

Oh goodbye May. June you made your way too fast.
Having exams sped everything up. Like especially MAY. You can just reserve that month for
E X A M S S S S S S..
Had MT olevel. No comments. My fingers are crossed. I really do not want to take it a second time. What a torture:/

HALLO CAN SOMEBODY GUIDE ME THROUGH BLOGGER?! I NEED TO CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN. Im not savvy at this aspect. (OBV, that goes without saying)

I have church campppp this week. (Y) But before that I'll have to go through a week's more of structured lessons.

At this point of time, I think Im being too lenient with myself. Im having breaks now.. I'll see how far I would go this time~

PS/ I W A N T T O E A T^^

V/\NESS/\

WHAT A DAYYYYY^^

2010-05-14T13:29:00.008+08:00

THE LAST SONG~

Plaza with the girls. Cinema indeed was full house.
F21 has really nice bikinis. I like^^
We felt magic on that day. What an unusual day/
Eh who want help me with blog stuffzz?! I very lost. I very sick of it alr. Too long and you know old..
Sigh.
Yay Party pronto!! MONDAY. HEHEHHE.

Btw, no flea coming up ah?! I know there is one in july. Haizz, june eh?!??$%&*@#
Oh well.
I needa study my DSLR to discover secret functionsss..

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man
I'd listen to her

'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

Till We Meet Again;
V/\N

STAMINA

2010-05-12T18:01:00.004+08:00

The race has just only started, but i personally felt that i ran the longest distance in my whole adolescent life.
Finally, I'm just one pathetic day away from MYEs.What a distance/

The amount of information we fit into our brain can sometimes be compared to a beggar who is gulping down whatever food he sees. Are we really that hungry for information? I do wonder that after all these, does it really pay off? With that cliche that everyone says/states/agrees/stick to, many a times i do get sick of it. Someone please give another rendition to it. Though many of you may find the simplicity refreshing, however i seek for more.

I do seek gratification at the wildest thing that nobody expects and I have no reason for that weird character of mine.

I'm always face with.. unknown circumstances and I'm just taken aback by it. Everything around me seems just like a realm of shadows and masks.

I do yearn for a saccharine smile at times and I hope that It'll last forever..

1. I need to change this ancient blogskin/name that I've kept since my primary days.
2. People find it absurd about the taste I have for people.
3. I really hope I can make myself disappear at times when I want to/

I want to break out from the cage that I'm in.
It is only when you get freedom can you really... (you fill that up)

Another Hard Day;
V~

Time Capsule

2010-05-11T19:03:00.004+08:00

How have you been?
A Little Breather from books. Oh well lets hit the books soon!!
In general, it was not the best i've ever had. I do hope for the best in everything.
I yearn for much more, perhaps you could be my salvation~
I'll catch you in a while/\
A LITTLE MORE; IT'LL BE OVERRRRRRR.

2010-04-24T22:23:00.002+08:00

You could catch me in a faraway distance;
A place where is mystified.
I would love if you could wish me well/
Lady luck i would greatly need your help,
This could be the last time for all that I've done.
Please say you would catch me soon in the next galaxy;
a place where i would most gladly be.

ON HAITUS~

2010-04-13T18:00:00.003+08:00

You Are Timeless To Me

MID YEARS IS JUST 2 WEEKS AWAY. IM AMAZED AT HOW TIME PASS AT SUCH INCREDIBLE SPEED.

I'm really very tired of friends who are around me. I WANT SOMEONE TO ASSURE ME THAT ONCE I CLOSE MY EYES, EVERYTHING WILL JUST FALL TO A SITUATION THAT I WANT IT TO BE. With that, the world wouldnt be more magical.

I'm beginning to step into that little and small confined space that is called isolation. I'm also puzzled at myself for that change. Perhaps it is just the fact that exams are nearing. It couldnt be any nearer than that. I sometimes cannot imagine how i just pulled through each and every lessons in school. Firstly, I noticed that when you are doing a math problem sum, copying something from the board, doing comprehension, it feels as though someone went to adjust the clock in like what 5 secs? Before you knew it, an hour has just past. I am really scared:\

I'm labelled "weird" for not being my usual self. Maybe I shouldnt give the impression of myself as a happy-go-lucky kinda girl from the start. At times, you can show a frontier of yourself laughing but only you yourself know that it is just a show. I want to have as many "masks" as possible. I hate it when somebody do not understands me at least half the percentage of me as I do. I know it is not easy to comprehend someone but sometimes I do like that private space; somewhere where I can find that puny serenity.

When we leave this school in due time to come, I'll always remember that I have a friend who couldnt be more caring as you. You were the best I ever knew even though you made me sad at times. Making fun of you is just priceless, you wouldnt even get a least offended. My friend, tyvm^^ <3

NEXT...

I like this poem:

..I am nobody's friend.

Once I tarnish a reputation, it is never that same.

Remember, before you repeat a story, ask yourself:
Is it true? Is it fair? Is it necessary?
If not, do not repeat it. (Extracted from the poem "My Name Is Gossip")

PS/ You should be studying now instead of reading this my friends/

Till Then,

Vanessa/

2010-04-09T18:56:00.002+08:00

The Peak

So how's your week folks?? Mine was just plainly GOOD?/ NO lessons for 3 days-monday to wednesday cause of BMW. Performed for closing ceremony and all. Adrenaline rush i tell you. Like at the backstage. Plus i breezed through my ballet exam on tues. How Nice!! HAHAH/

To be frank, there is nothing interesting about the week. Except it is Joyce's Birthday on Thursday. That girl is finally 16!!:) YAY!!^^

I'M PRAYING FOR TJC's concert to be like over so i can step down from CCA. I feel so loser when almost everyone stepped down from their CCA except DANCE. Is like WAH the feeling is you know very pek cek type. However, NO DANCE=NO EXERCISE:( Oh how to i get those vigorous exercise from besides dance. :( Sighhhhhh/ I think that's the bad part of it. OH NO OH NO!! CHINESE O LEVELS COMING. COMING. C O M I N G. I NEED TO GET OVER THAT ONE QUICKLY. LIKE ACE THE SUBJECT OR SOMETHING!!! I'm so paranoid all of a sudden. All the caps and all. HAHHA I have to admit that I LOVE CAPS, BABY!!:)

I H A V E A M A J O R C R A V I N G F O R... G R E E N T E A I C E C R E A M NOW!!~

Well moving on, I'm quite intimidated by some of my classmates' actions. IM REALLY VERY SCARED:\ NOT KIDDING. IS LIKE.. HAIYA SHALL NOT GO ON ANY FURTHER//

MONDAY I'VE GOT CHEM CA2, FRIDAY IVE GOT EMATH CA2. YOU KNOW WHAT?? I SHOULD STOP TELLING YOU MY LIFE STORY AND GET DOWN TO WORK. IT IS JUST TOO LITTLE TIME. OR MAYBE IT IS JUST ME/ BB!!

I'll catch you soon;

V/\NESS/\

2010-04-01T21:59:00.002+08:00

April fool's
–noun
1. the victim of a practical joke or trick on April Fools' Day.
2. a practical joke or trick played on that day.

You'll be that fool when you played a prank on someone after 12pm. It doesnt last the whole day though. I only realised it now. So to be frank, I can be named as a "fool" as i was involved in a prank like today.. (BEST eyy!!)

-Amath test was hardcore. I dont know how i manage to survive that battle i was fighting but yeah.
-SS was "OK" only. Like you know without those clues I think I might have crush those papers and throw them around.

I'm so tired. Next week for 3 consecutive days=BMW. Taking a little breather from school work. I hate those extended curriculum:( Make me stay longer in school and suffer.

When everything falls apart, would you be the first to salvage the situation?

I'll catch you soon;
VANESSA

2010-03-27T22:01:00.002+08:00

Earth Hour/\

22nd was when i turned 16.

24th was when i suffered under the hands of Rate Of Change during my Amath tutition:

26th was the day that i felt that i was using my last breath for dance.

And.. today Earth Hour. I did my part. I'm very proud of it. (Y)~ I bet you did not. Oh well.

Are you aware that we are slowly biding March goodbye? I am. I dont want April. With April Fool's kicking off the month, we all know that it aint going that smoothly-with the start of MYEs. Mine you, they are damn important to me. They are like oysters harvested from the deep blue ocean; that precious. I need that good grades for DPA.

I felt quite accomplished as I manage to complete 2 of my Lit PBQs. Hey, it is Midsummer k. Which I kinda lost touch in it. So yeap, got back into that dream-like place for that moment when I was analysing the text. It brings back to the point where love is blind and irrational. I dont quite take that stand.

Lastly, 1 more lesson till I embrace myself for my ballet exam. Well mainly that is one of the reason why I felt that every April is just a spoiler to me. Sorry kiddos if your birthdays are in April. You will still get my blessings though. :) Oh my, i bet that was the only smiley face I had for this post.

Lastly, I M V E R Y S A D N O W. Perhaps it will last till forever? I should stop laughing.

V!!

2010-03-19T23:49:00.008+08:00

2010-03-19T22:50:00.002+08:00

"Going Through The Motions"

Holidays flew past. What did You and I accomplished?? Sad to say, I still have incompleted hw at hand. I just do not know how to go about it. I left it alone in a clean plastic folder. Once monday morning breaks, i know what i will get.

I feel just monotone; the same effect a DSLR has. You know what I'm talking about.

Take an example:

Many joyful memories are forgotten

And as the hours go by

And life goes on

There are many wonders to see

And you just run by carefree

As you listen to life's chime

You stand aside waiting for your time

But your time is when you realize

Just what you forgot

And how you walked into a big ole knot

And that as you stand aside

Your future flies by

Like it will not see you

And then you hate how it took so long for you to see

That life's joy was every rotten memory/

I think this will be what we face after we have stepped out of our 4 years of our secondary school life. Not exactly the same, but a mere duplication of this.

How i wished that i could stay awake for a week straight and watch quietly as the seconds go by. Only that will i experience the true meaning of time. Talking to myself saying that the day is coming and you need to study, sometimes has no strong impact on me. I guess it is useless, perhaps another method might help.

Whatever character i posses may not always be your ideal one you are looking for. Firstly, i have this motto: Do not change for others but yourself.

Well deep down, many of you or can say All of you do not really....

Many more things coming up. I'll just attack the more important one/the ones that need immediate attention..

Next post will be all on pictures. (town outing and a hw day)

/You call it splendid, i'm on the reverse\

2010-03-17T23:07:00.018+08:00

Affinity

1) Sunday(14th) had my advance 16th party.

2)I got a very huge suprise. Almost wanted to cry. :)

3)Thank you to those who came/organize everything etc:)

4)I'm really back dated.

5)FB not cooperating with me:(

6)I got million of photos stuck in my com.

7)My hw is yet to be completed. (tmr=fingers crossed)

8)I'm craving for green tea ice cream.

9)I want someone to help me complete my hw.

10)I want to catch Remember Me. (God knows when the day will arrive)

11)School Holidays are ending.

12)Tkam play this sat/

13)I like those who are true to themselves.

14)I like everything around me to be organised. (IDK why)

15)Right now, someone pls send me a msg. tyvm. :) AHHAh.

PS/ We can turn our flaws to strengths, depending on how you play your game.

Ashes Of Love;
VanTHN.

2010-03-12T19:28:00.003+08:00

"You Know You Love Retro"

Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday came and went. I sometimes find it invisible. But I can certainly feel the presence of Friday.

My throat is giving me hell of a bad time. Dry and like you know very sick and gross. I'm wondering how am i going to feast on sunday. Sighhh. BBQ!!

But i'm still feeling quite hype up for SUNDAY(14TH). HAHAH YAY it is going to be fun.

I think i'm putting people in a spot. Guess what?! Theme: In The 80s/Retro. I bet all of you are having a hard time deciding on what to wear right?! CONFIRM LA. DONT LIE. All in all, I KNOW YOU LOVE RETRO. Dont wear according to the theme=forfeit for you:) K wait, i'll be nice. Must have at least 1 element of the theme. K good enough right?? :) OKOK. YAY.

PS: Those who do not know where is the venue, meet at pp then after that give either shirleen/joyce/me a call and we'll fly over to fetch you :) Dont purposely sabo us make us going numerous trips ah. Meet in groups of 4-5 and we'll be very grateful :) TYVM!! ^^V.

HALLO/// I GOT HELL LOADS OF HW TO BE COMPLETED!!!!! Most of them have the same thing in common which is "exam papers". Either past Mid Year/End Of Year papers. I havent started reading them, i'm already feeling the dreariness. :(

I'm really very envious of those who won ADAM LAMBERT'S CONCERT TICKET just by buying a copy of his Deluxe Edition CD. If i known that earlier, perhaps i might get a copy if it and my chance of winning would be a little closer. I WANT TO GO!!:( Soo annoying. :( K you know what. I'm very very sad now. Sighhh/

All Good Things Dont Last;

VTHN/

2010-03-05T19:26:00.009+08:00

"The Second Hand Unwinds"

So now we are already into the first week of Marchhhh. Yeah everyone knows that February is short but we dont expect it to zoom past us at a speed of like 130km/h. So Tuesday(2March) was Shirleen's 16th. Went out to celebrate her birthday in advance on monday. Caught "Dear John" at Marina. (Y) I FULFILLED 1 OF MY WISH LIST. :) It was a pretty much of a sad show?? Like the ending was up to your own interpretation. So yeah. Did i mentioned that my teeth was bald on that day?! It had no more metal protection. It feels so fragile like you know. Haiya. Took out my braces and had to wear this transparent plastic retainers which i dont like:( I cannot talk properly. SOOOOO MOVING ON.. It feels very weird to be out on a Monday evening till night with nobody of the same age as us lingering around. AHHA. Like you know i think there's only 3 of us who were sec 4's there. The rest were like working class ppl etc. Stayed till 930pm and left for home. Headed straight for that nice soft bed/

So we got bad most of our CAs and i dislike what i'm getting:( I've got no As k!! DAMN SAD!!:(

Mr Math was being difficult with me and it left me with a hand full of careless mistakes and it earned me a bloody B grade. See that is why you need that sheer luck for every single exam you take. Without it, even the smartest person could sometimes fail.

Tues: I received my online blogshop stuffszz!! HAHAH SO NICE K. I like my Toga Romper!! :)

Comes to Thursday and Friday and it marks the end of the first week of March. So i shall not go on any further about what im facing in dance lest you get irritated and agitated:) AHHAHA. Thurs: 2.4km NAFA test!!!!!!!!! I LIKE IT VERY MUCHHHH. 13 mins 40 secs. YAY A for me:)

PLUS I DONT WANT APRIL TO COME!!!!!
I've got ballet exam:( :( :( :( :( :( :(
6th April.

Then 17th April TJC'S CONCERT. Looks like the month of april would be the crashing of dance steps, different counts and different genre of music. What A Spoiler!! I'm like Jeopardising myself with all these commitments and at the same time i have to balance all of them well:\

I feel that sometimes i'm to calm over certain things. Also, I realised that this post is all about the stupid time. You know what?! Time passes extra slowly when you are in a class with a boring teacher and a subject to learn. I bet it passes at like what 15km/h. Or perhaps even slower..

I'm so tired. I'M ALWAYS SO TIRED ON FRIDAY:( HOWWWW?! You want to help me?! I'll be grateful/ HEHEHE.

I'll Catch You Soon;

VANESSA/

2010-02-26T22:58:00.007+08:00

As Promised..

-On that day, my DSLR was running on a really low battery. Bad day. I had to choose what was worth taking. Wah damn difficult. LIKE you got a cam but you cant anyhow snap. See the frustration. Blame myself for not bringing another batt pack. THIS WILL NOT REPEAT:)

YAY THEN THEY HAD THIS HERSHEY'S CHOCOLATE WORLD. SO NICE. LOOK LIKE A MINI WILLY WONKA CHOCO FACTORY. I MEAN LIKE A MORE COMMERCIAL WAY. If you know what i mean. :) I WANT TO GRAB EVERYTHING OFF THE SHELVES!! HEHEHE.

AH YA. Go there personally to get what i am talking about. JUST STAND OUTSIDE IT IS MORE THAN ENOUGH. It just feel as though you were in another part of the world.

I'll catch you soon dear friends(L)

2010-02-26T19:31:00.003+08:00

Dear Life;

Just came back from dance practice for TJC's concert. I'm so tired. :( So much so fragile as a thinnest broken glass. All my friday's would have to be "happily" spent dancing. You know what i've got 15 more mins to say what i want before i run for my next class!!

I WANT TO GET MY CAs BACKKKK. NOWWW!! I want to see how i did!! GUESS WHAT I'VE ALREADY PLANNED OUT WHAT MY LIFE IS GOING TO BE IN THE NEXT 2-3 YEARS TIME. :) DAMN COOL AND WELL ORGANISED..

2010:
-Catch "Dear John", "Alice In Wonderland", "Percy Jackson & The Lightning Thief", Valentine's Day"(if it's still screening, i know i very late+backdated+loser) etc etc.. asap. (Next few weeks)
------------THAT'S FOR NOW-----------

2011-2012:
-Go clubbing!! YES. Drink!! :)
-Learn to drive. I make sure i pass the very first time:)
-Get into a nice poly which has "Dancesport". (Y)

HAHAHA see my life so wild one. I'VE PLANNED IT IN A WAY LIKE SO FUN & EASY..(If only what i'm facing now was this) K WHAT'S YOURS, my friend??:)

I'VE GOT ONLY 1 SENTENCE FOR THIS WHOLE WEEK: "IMSOTIREDBEINGASTUDENT".

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Next thing, i'll feed you more information on how my sat last week was so called well spent:)

-I WENT TO RESORTS WORLD-(SADLY ONLY OUTSIDE OF IT BUT STILL SOMETHING)

I WANT TO CAMP THERE FOR 365 DAYS!!:)

I'll Be Back Later!!
V. :)

2010-02-19T23:03:00.007+08:00

"If I Were Invincible"

Dear Friends:

As we walk our path of life,

We meet people everyday.

Most are simply met by chance.

But, some are sent our way.

These become special friends

Whose bond we can't explain;

The ones who understand us

And share our joy and pain.

When Jealousy take over,

it complicates things,

This happens occasionally but

Their love contains no boundaries.

So, even we are apart.

Their presence enhances us

With a warmth felt in the heart.

This love becomes a passageway,

When even the miles disappear.

------------------------------------------------------------------------------

A Different Perception:

Creeping through this world
One day at a time,
With love in my heart
That nobody seems to find,

Standing up proud of who I am
Not worrying about those who dont see me,
Eyes that are blinded with false hopes
Dont deserve the love that I see,

Patience is a virtue that I have heard
Said by those willing to wait,
While waiting sets up for failure
Hope is whats on my plate,

I have made wrong choices
And learn from the mistake
When true love knocks on your door,
Its not a choice you make..

Lastly, CAs I L O V E Y O U. O H I R E A L L Y D O/ W A I T & S E E!!

I'll catch you soon;

Vthn.

2010-02-15T23:13:00.008+08:00

"High & Dry"

-CNY this year was plain holiday for me.

-First day felt bored, no one was there to entertain me. :(

-Deonn thanks for those smses to keep me alive. At least i can keep my fingers on the go/

-Spent the 2nd day at Henderson Waves. Splendid. (Y)!!

-I like to be different.

-I wonder what 3rd day might be..

-Waiting for a text msg to reply to/

-My throat very pain.

---Conclusion: I ate alot of junk food=high calories!!:( I did no workout=feeling really guilty!!:(---

-Overcoming those major hiccups im having now.
-Manhattan Fish Market serves nice food. (I wouldnt mind dinning there everyday)
-I want to go to Universal Studio. (It looks like a dream place for all)
-I think i use my lap top too far away. (1st difference)
-I like to keep myself occupied. (2nd difference)
-I can drink the whole 1.5 litres of Green Tea down in a day. (3rd difference)
>>> I know deonn can do it too!! :) HAHA.
-I collected lesser red packet this year compared to all the previous years.

THEREFORE, for all these are you feeling sorry for me??
-This year CNY was ruined by the CAs.
-I've been keeping late nights. (I should stop now)

K thanks for listening to my rambles. I appreciate your time. THANKYOUVERYMUCH.
You should go study now!!

I'll catch you soon;
Vanessa

2010-02-12T22:46:00.004+08:00

"You're The Hard Candy With The Surprise Centre"

-CNY celebration today at school with kids from holy fam kindergarten.

- This little boy named "Liam' is hot. He's going to be an eye-candy when he grows older.

-Those Long and Straight hair little girls. They are just the princesses.

-Lastly, i'm such a pedophile. I prey on young kidsssszz//

After school, went home, came out met chanel and shirleen. Went to town. I finally got my shoes. :) :) :) :) :) LIKE AFTER MANY FAILED OUTINGS AND TODAY I MADE HISTORY!! Far East is exceptionally crowded today. Human traffic everywhere!! MAJOR ONES NOT MINORS. Worst part: Bengs and lians seen together everywhere.(best if it's always that kinda combination) BUTTT... sadly not. Sigh// I SHALL NOT GO ANY FURTHER. :

I left at 6-ish. Chanel & Shirleen went to Haji after that. We are contented people today. Shirleen i salute you man!! You spent like 60+++ dollars in like what?? less that an hour. HAHAH. My legs so pain after those long and dreary walk. :( :( :( :( :(

So VDAY is the same day as CNY. How's that??
I'm proud to announce: IMSPENDINGVDAYSINGLETHISYEAR. :) HAHA. COOL RIGHT??!!

HEHEHHE/ Eh Eh Eh. Along orchard road there was this small set up of booth with a microphone PLUS some radio stars(Flying Dutchman etc) standing around with orange shirt. The question was: "If Today Was Your Last Day, Who Would You Say I Love You To?" The booth was empty and no one dared to walk up and speak right into the mic. I guess it would go on air like prolly tonight/Vday?? Not sure. But the point is.. Sporeans are just too shy and filled with so much inhibition. Approximatlely hundreds of couples past you when you are walking along orchard road but only how many of them are that daring. HAHAH, guess what?? Perhaps for every 100 only like 1-3 of them are that daring. :) K so you see the picture now. It'd be the sweetest thing on earth even if your friend said that to you on air. Awwww!! ^^V. HAHA.

January just disappeared without me realising the importance of it. February had just taken its place for the first 2 weeks. With so much distractions around you, you wouldnt realise the importance of time. Now, after the "nice" long break i have, i find myself unwillingly sitting for another test. The CA1s////////Though it may not look as intimidating as the major exam we are taking end of the year, but i still feel the tightness in my brain.

It Always Come Right Back To Me;
~V~

2010-02-05T22:43:00.003+08:00

"Eagle Eye"

-I've got 2 fat blisters on my toes/ball of my feet.

-"Dancers dont have nice feet". (I agree)

-You have to be thick skin to be able to improve.

-Memory counts.

After another gruelling week of school. I bit through it, and yes it's friday again. This week is a little different. I was being fed with more gossips ANDDD it revealed the other side of a person.

You have to have great looks to be a successful bitch. Hey mind you!! I'm talking about the one who has intelligence huh. You only have 1 teenage life to live, why be such a 2-faced person. Call yourself that before calling others. You put on a sweet, demure facade but deep down you are not that kinda person, why even bother to ACT. I have no issues or whatsoever about "copying". Do you think that everyone of us are born original?? I'm proud to announce NO. If you think so, you are living in another part of the world. Perhaps you were just born today. You bitch about ppl in your own class and pretended to like them. Why do you have to be so hypocritical?! Purpose?? BTW.. charmaine thanks for the update. :) HEH!!
You tried to be nice for a moment in dance just to gain that new circle of friends and you look down on them when they cannot perform properly. I guess you fumbled over steps when you were in sec 1. I gladly admit that i was like that too once.. I was just so glad that you werent the head. Just so you know, sometimes you just supersede the head without realising it. It is time to know where your boundaries are and not just merely be on this planet to bitch all day long//

You are a smart kid, so it would be definitely senseless for me to tell you where is the level of intensity is. And my friend, that pal of yours is equally bad. Or perhaps even worse than you.. I guess She didnt even know her own gender well enough before getting into a r'ship of the same gender. I wonder, what is this world coming to??

All of us have a mission in life to accomplish. And if you choose this path way to walk, you are just going to regret it. You wished that you wouldnt have done those stupid things in your teenage life.

PS: I'M JUST SO SAD THAT I HAVE TO END MY POST WITH SUCH AWFUL REMARKS/

i'll catch you soon;
VANESSA~

2010-01-29T23:04:00.002+08:00

"Your Dream Still Exists"

So it's Friday again. Yesss, i'm posting again. Heh, see i kept to my promise. :)
So well Mon-Wed was equally mundane as ever. Like those lessons everyday. ROUTINE. Haizz..

Thurs & Fri Hardcore work-out. I need to beat that 8 min plus plus timing for 1.5km. Like perhaps 30 secs faster:) HEHEH.

Thursday: Start of cca for the newbies:) They look so small and some of them look as young as a kindergarten kid!! HAHHA. I mean like seriously. Not kidding. They were fine. Except i think i was much bigger when i was in sec 1 back then. Perhaps 5 times bigger. YES.

Friday: Had dance audition today for TJC's concert. We are guesting their concert on the 17th April at Republic Poly. It has been ages since i last learnt such a challenging routine like today. Oh my, i was completely exhausted after everything!! WATER TASTE SO NICE WHEN YOU ARE DAMN THIRSTY. I JUST CANT FIGURE THAT FACT OUT. Hmm.. Tonight i'm sure i'll have my calves all bunched up and cramping away. Sighh//

Finally, itunes is being a bitch now. It is not being friendly to Mr IPhone. I feel damn annoyed now. So if i happen to talk annoying-ly at you, not my fault ah. Blame it on the technology nowadays. ADAM!! CAN YOU PLS TELL ME WHEN ARE YOU COMING DOWN TO SPORE?! MARCH WHEN???? I WANT TO GO K!! :) REALLY REALLY!! Oh well, I heard that Kris Allen is coming down too. But he's performing in some pub which only admits people who is over 18years of age. So.. Not too fantastic after all/

Tuition HW sucks Big Time!! Uhh. Toopid!! :/

Predestined;
VANESSA/

2010-01-22T22:52:00.003+08:00

"Jekyll & Hyde"

I dont care if Monday's blue

Tuesday's grey and Wednesday too;
Thursday i dont care about you;
It's Friday i'm in Love.. (The Cure)

I'm planning to dedicate a post once a week to like summarise how's my week so far.
So this shall be the first. :)
Well as much as everyone is dragged out of bed facing those atrocious days ahead of them, i'm not facing any much nicer either. So we are equal on this ground. To kick start this week, the graduating classes had to attend this "mini" retreat(2 days) at the novena church(pastoral centre) centring mainly on spirituality, family, friendship, sexuality. I definitely had a good and nice laugh. Wed was just like a usual Wed=nothing special. Oh thurs shall be my enemy from now on. PE + dance=drop-dead-exhausted-pathetic-creature-living-on-planet. Had a really intense workout-1.5km run. Dance was just mainly eating up whatever remnant of energy i have had stored in my body. I got home thinking that i felt alright but the next day my body just wouldnt let me relax. Muscles started aching and contracting-especially my abdomen, thighs, arms, NECKKK. The moment i STARTED laughing, the 4 of them always had their chance to gang up against me. Well what do i do?? Practically Nothing. I will just be immune to the pain then after.

Friday: dance audition for the sec 1s. Out of 60, only 19 got in. Yesss that little. Haizzz. As usual ballet at night. Back, and here rambling on and on. \

Sometimes I always wondered, what will happen to all of us after our last year of education??
She say JC, you say Poly, they say JC, I say Poly. Well i constantly have to remind myself where i want to go after those majors and that is what keeps me focus or mayb a little more into school work. With those constant distractions like concerts!! (ftw!!) *I HEARD ADAM LAMBERT IS COMING TO SPORE SOMETIME THIS YEAR* HAHAH!! I think you saw that. Not a secret anymore. If that was true, IM GOING!! YESSS~

Alright, back to serious stuff!! See this is what i meant. D I S T R A C T I O N S/ Okayy, i shall start some long grandma story again:)

Perhaps we all know that men are not created equal in the sense some people would have us believe-some people are wiser than others, some people have more opportunity than others because they're born with it, some men make more money than others-some people are born gifted beyond the normal scope of most man. Please say that you are agreeing with me on this whole huge statement. :) YES K YOU DO:) HAHAHHA!!

I bet you that all of you are wondering why i named this post "Jekyll and Hyde". Well for a purpose. Everything happens for a purpose and that's what i strongly stick to. Basically, i believe every single one of us will meet somebody who has this "Jekyll ad Hyde" personality. It means that a person who shows good and evil personalities. You can defend that you do not exhibit this kind of character, but subconsciously you are just unaware of it.

SOOOOO.. All this is just sufficient for you to know what this girl named "Vanessa" has been doing for this whole week.

All Lies With Me;
VVVVV#

2010-01-14T18:04:00.003+08:00

"I Could Spend My Life In This Sweet Surrender"

Had this Financial workshop today. HHAHA. Lasted till 430. Thought it was going to be dreary.. But HEY!! IT WAS LIKE ENTERTAINING:) LEARNT HOW TO MANAGE MONEY, EXPENDITURE, HOW TO WRITE A PROPER CHEQUE(joke) anddd we played with STOCKS!! AHAHHA, It was awesomely fun. Like buy low sell high. Adrenalin rush whenever we buy like 1lot of stock and knowing whether it is going to increase/decrease or worse bankrupt!! HAHA. Oh well made quite a fair bit of money!! (1.231 Million)---- if it was real life, me and atika would like quit school. HAHAh kidding!! LOVE TODAY!! YAY!!

Tmr-------------The dining etiquette course. Quite excited for it. :) TRIPLE YAY!!
Today is Green Day Concert. I wanna go for The Killers!! SOLD OUT. WHAT A SUCCESSFUL SHOW HUH!! HAIZZZ..

Dearest Joyce,

Thanks for being there when i needed you the most. Especially today:) The trust you have in me is something indescribable- sharing something very personal with me. Though you are a little different from others due to your quiet personality, you have a special quality that anybody would want for a friend. From the day i knew you, i strongly have this feeling that our friendship would go a long way. :) AND YES, you have proved that to me.. You have been a great friend to me for a close 4 years. But wait, i knew you way long before that. It was when we were in primary school. HAHAH. At that time you were just too good to be true and i was like labelled by the teacher the so called "naughty group". So yes we were of different worlds at that time. It was fate that brought us together as friends and it was never too late to discover that i have a wonderful friend like you. :)

PS:/ i hope you get to read this!! \

I'll catch you soon;
VANESSA

2010-01-11T18:30:00.002+08:00

"A Silent Thunder"

Back for more news. :) I've survived after a week of school. So now facing the second week. Packed and busy schedule, just as i expected. We end at 2.15 almost everyday. To make it more torturous, we have 5 periods of Amath on friday. (2.5 hours) ---Non-Stop--- As far as i know, through out my years of schooling, Friday is said to be the "relaxation day". Like the least books to bring and not so important subjects and all. Amath just gladly reserved its place on friday. WHAT A SPOILER!! So anyways, managed to cope with it. My bet, it's thurs!! AH HAHA!! You know what?! For the first time, i clearly understood Mrs L. explanation. Like it never happened in my whole life before. Except during sec 3, she explained matrices(Amath). I heavily relied on tuition. So that's how i managed to get away with all the doubts:)

Had CCA fair on saturday. Performed and had to lured sec 1s to join DANCE. HAHAH. Hope to keep the numbers on the rise!! With each passing day at school, I always have this mindset that we are nearing "O"s. Like A day nearer each time it goes.. Just a few months time, i will experience the deafening moment-same day, place, perhaps time. All i can target is: Poly you are my choice. :) Just that. So just that for academic/

Thurs&Fri- "Into the World"=course on some etiquette dining and mannerism. Our school really pays emphasis on this kinda things. Like which school does that?!! Perhaps Raffles and all those branded schools. While i find that kinda interesting, the school finds it more interesting to give us more trouble by asking all of us to wear either casual/formal/business wear. I was speechless upon hearing this. LIKEEEE.. okay i understand it is held in a hotel and all. Butttt like.. AH, forget it. K wait, that is like a small issue the big one is____________ they suggest us to wear make up. Ok, it might be a joy to you/whoever reading this. But certainly not to me. I'm not into cosmetics:) Like performance is obv acceptable, but we are attending a course eh. Must it be so grand and all?! Haizzzzz.. That pair of Rubi's shoes FTW!! It's just drop dead silence gorgeous, also on sale plzz!! HAHAH. Perfect match for what i'm going to wear on friday. HEHEHE. Lets see how am i going to work those stiletto heels. They need a good owner to know how to work in them or else you will just earn yourself a bump on your face/(Not saying that i am a professional in that)

Joyce: Eh most Kc girls quite pretty right??
Me: Uh, depends la. Not all.
Joyce: No i mean like mostly is quite passable one..
Me: Er No. HAHA.

Ps: just a rough outline of the convo.

HAHAHHA, I was like laughing all the way when joyce said that. Like no offence plzz. How can the whole school be filled with pretty/ stunning girls. AHHA, she and her definition of "pretty". Biggest joke of all. Even i am not classified as 1 of them. :) Proud to announce that. Im joining the "Ugly group" HAHAH. k, jkjk!! HAHA. Cause i believe beauty dont earn you anywhere besides getting a gazillion of guys lining up for you. That dont work for me. YAY FOR THOSE VESSELS HIDDEN UNDER YOUR SKULL. THEY are the ones that are living proof of what beauty is all about:)

A piece of trivia for you: I LIKE TO MAKE PPL REALISE THAT WHAT THEY ARE AIMING FOR IS ACTUALLY NOT THE PRIORITY OF THEIR LIFE. I LIKE(x infinity)!!

Babes, I'll catch you soon;
VANESSA/

2010-01-03T13:50:00.010+08:00

"Innuendo"

Saturday-Flea Titan IV with besties~ YAY I BOUGHT WHAT I WANTED. :) Saw many familiar faces:) It was LIKE HOT SAUNA INSIDE. HOT!! Had dinner at Marina-Carls.

Guess what?? Sch is tmr. Hw just done at this very moment. Phewww/

WAIT THERE IS A LOT OF TESTS GOING ON AFTER SCH REOPENS. :(

SCH SCH SCH SCH AND SCHOOL. HAIZZ//

PS: Thanks for always being able to make it for like all the outings. You have been great. This is something very rare in friends. You are just the rare one, perhaps out of a thousand:) That's something I'll treasure. <3

I'll catch you soon;

VANESSA/